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2008-12-28T21:56:00.001+08:00

YO PEOPLE..

got new blog.. haha

please relink.. xD

ty.. xD

2008-12-22T20:03:00.005+08:00

so damn caught up with twilight.. xD heh.. xD

ISABELLA SWAN

Birthname: Kristen Jaymes Stewart

Born: April 9, 1990

Birthplace: Los Angeles, California

Nickname: Kris

Height: 5′ 6″ (1.68 m)

Siblings: Older brother named Cameron

Parents: Father is a stage manager and television producer who worked for FOX. Mother, a native of Australia, is a screenwriter.

Filmography: Kristen started acting in 1999 when got a minor role in the made for televsion film, The Thirteenth Year (2001). She had another minor role in The Safety of Objects. Then she landed a role in the major Hollywood film, Panic Room (2002). After Panic Room’s success, Stewart was cast in another thriller, Cold Creek Manor (2003). Her first starring role followed, in the children’s action-comedy Catch That Kid (2004). To date, most critically acclaimed role may be in the television film Speak (2004), based on the novel by Laurie Halse Anderson. Also in 2004 she was in Undertow. In 2005 she was in Fierce People and Zathura. In 2007 she was in The Messangers, In the Land of Women, Into the Wild, and Cutlass. Her films for 2008 are Jumper, What Just Happened?, Yellow Handkerchief, The Cake Eaters, Adventureland, and last but not least, Twilight!

she looks so pretty!! xD

EDWARD CULLEN

Birthname: Robert Thomas-Pattinson

Born: May 13, 1986

Birthplace: London, England, UK

Nickname: Rob, RPattz, Spunk Ransom

Height: 6′ 1″ (1.85 m)

Siblings: sisters (unknown)

Random: knows how to play the piano & guitar

Filmography: He started acting in amateur plays with the Barnes Theatre Company. After, he took screen role like Ring of the Nibelungs (2004) (TV) (Kingdom of Twilight) as Giselher and Vanity Fair (2004) as Rawdy Crawley.

In 2003, he got the role of Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (2005). Robert has also completed upcoming roles as Salvador Dali in Little Ashes (2008) and Art in How to Be (2008). Lastly he was cast as Edward in Twilight (2008).

he's so hot! hmm first time i say ppl hot.. hmm..

BUT HE'S RELI HOT.. XD haha.. xD *mad*

ALICE CULLEN

Birthname: Ashley Michele Greene

Born: Februrary 21, 1987

Birthplace: Jacksonville, Florida

Nickname: Chewey (bear), Asher

Height: 5′ 5″ (1.65 m)

Siblings: Joseph Greene

Parents: Joseph and Michele Greene

Filmography: Ashley’s acting career started in 2006 when she guest starred on the television shows Crossing Jordan, playing Ann Rappaport opposite Jill Hennessy and Miguel Ferrer, and Shark, in which she was only seen in brief shots in the background - but bigger parts soon followed. Ashley got a regular gig on the soap Desire, but the series was cancelled after just one season. Stepping into the film scene, Ashley had a bit part in 2007’s King of California. Up next for her is thriller Otis and the sci-fi drama Radio Free Albemuth, where she plays Rhonda - and, of course, the highly anticipated Twilight movie.

alice is so cute in twilight!! xD she looks like a child! xD

JASPER HALE

Birthname: Jackson Rathbone

Born: December 21, 1984

Birthplace: Singapore

Nickname: Jay

Filmography: Jackson has guest stared in the television shows The O.C. (2006) and The War at Home (2007). He had a leading role on the ABC Family original series Beautiful People (2005-2006). In 2007, Jackson appeared in the TV movie, The Valley of Light. He also appeared in several other movies- Pray for Morning (2006), River’s End (2007), Big Stan (2007), Senior Skip Day (2007), and the to-be-released films Hurt (2008), and DaZe: Vol. Too (sic) - NonSeNse (2009).

jasper looks cool.. hmmm..

ROSALIE HALE

Birthname: Nicole Houston Reed

Born: May 23, 1988

Birthplace: West Los Angeles, California

Nickname: Nikki

Height: 5′ 7½” (1.71 m)

Siblings: Older brother, Nathan August Reed

Parents: Father, Seth Reed & mother, Cheryl Houston who’s a hairdresser

Random: loves to go horseback riding

pretty lady.. like a doll..

EMMETT CULLEN

Birthname: Kellan Lutz

Born: March 15, 1985

Birthplace: North Dakota

Siblings: Six brothers, one sister (Brittany)

Filmography: Kellan has guest stared on many television shows-The Bold and the Beautiful (1987), CSI: NY and Summerland (2004), The Comeback and Six Feet Under in 2005, and Heroes and CSI: Las Vegas in 2007. Kellan stared in two movies in 2006, Stick It and Accepted. In 2008, Kellan had roles in Prom Night, Deep Winter, and Twilight.

building with feet.. hmm.. big big tall tall person..

ESME

Birthname: Elizabeth Ann Reaser

Born: June 15, 1975

Birthplace: Bloomfield, Michigan

Nickname: None

Height: 5′ 2½” (1.59 m)

Filmography: She earned the “Jury Award” at the Newport Beach Film Festival in 2006 for her work in the film Sweet Land, and in 2007 was nominated for an Independent Spirit Award as “Best Female Lead” for the same part. Reaser also earned a Primetime Emmy Award nomination for Outstanding Guest Actress in a Drama Series for her recurring guest appearance throughout 2007 on the television series Grey’s Anatomy as an unidentified pregnant woman suffering from amnesia. Reaser currently has two film projects in production, scheduled to be released in 2008- Twilight and Against the Current.

pretty mother..

CARLISLE CULLEN

Birthname: Peter Facinelli

Born: November 26, 1973

Birthplace: Queens, New York

Nickname: None

Height: 5′ 10″ (1.78 m)

Spouse: Jennie Garth

Children: Luca Bella Facinelli (11), Lola Ray Facinelli (5), Fiona Eve Facinelli (1)

Filmography: Peter Facinelli appeared in several productions at the NYU-affiliated Atlantic Theater Company before making his feature film debut as the devil in Rebecca Miller’s Angela (1995). The handsome young actor caught the attention of critics and audiences as Bret, a teenage hustler surviving on the mean streets of Hollywood, in the TV-movie The Price of Love (1995). Facinelli then played Tim Matheson’s son and the target of his father’s jealous ex-lover in An Unfinished Affair (1996). Other TV roles followed, including the pivotal part of the teen who committed suicide in After Jimmy (1996) and a college dropout pursuing his dream of a life as a fisherman against his family’s wishes in Calm at Sunset (1996). Facinelli co-starred with Amanda Peet and Michael Vartan in the AIDS-themed drama Touch Me (1997) before co-starring as a high school student in two 1998 features, Dancer, Texas Pop. 81, with Ethan Embry and Breckin Meyer, and Can’t Hardly Wait, about a graduation night bash that co-starred Embry and Meyer as well as Melissa Joan Hart, Jennifer Love Hewitt and Jerry O’Connell. In 1999 and appeared in the sci-fi film Supernova starring Kevin Spacey in 2000. Solid roles in Riding in Cars With Boys in 2001 and Scorpion King in 2002 were followed by a leading role in the hit Fox drama Fastlane. After his recurring role in HBO’s critically acclaimed series Six Feet Under, Facinelli tacked a few more films on to his resume, and then starred in A&E’s made for TV movie, Touch the Top of the World. Since then, Peter tackled the role of Gregory Malina in FX’s hit TV series, Damages. In 2008, Peter appeared in Finding Amanda and now, Twilight.

another cool guy.. but blonde hair suits him.. black hair abit bad boyish..

JACOB BLACK

Birthname: Taylor Daniel Lautner

Born: February 11, 1992

Birthplace: Grand Rapids, Michigan

Nickname: None

Height: 5′ 9″ (1.75 m)

Siblings: Younger sister named Makena

Parents: Unknown

Filmography: Taylor was bitten by the acting bug when he was seven years old. When he was ten his family made the hard decision to relocate to Los Angeles where Taylor would have the advantage of being able to audition on a full-time basis. Since moving to Los Angeles, Taylor has booked roles on My Wife and Kids (2001), Summerland (2004), The Bernie Mac Show (2001), and The Nick and Jessica Variety Hour (2004) (TV). In addition to television, Taylor has been very successful in the voice over work. Taylor has booked a recurring role as Youngblood on the cartoon Danny Phantom (2005) as well as he has recording two episodes of What’s New, Scooby Doo? (2002) and Duck Dodgers (2005). Taylor has also booked a series regular of a pilot presentation called Which Way is Up? (1977) along with the voice of Silas in an animation series entitled ‘Silas and Brittany’. His big break came in 2005 when, at the age of thirteen, Taylor won the role of Shark Boy in the Robert Rodriguez film The Adventures of Sharkboy and Lavagirl (2005). He spent three months on location in Austin, Texas filming, which he thoroughly enjoyed. Within months, he then successfully auditioned to play Eliot, the son of the Bakers’ rival, in Cheaper by the Dozen 2 (2005). Taylor worked little after that until finally landing the role of Jacob Black in Twilight (2008).

smiley guy.. just like jacob in the book.. lols..

i don lik him.. everytime reach his part.. i skip skip skip the pages.. bleh.. idiot..

HOW DARE HE KISS BELLA.. should have use a baseball bat and hit him.. grr..

okay.. thats all the good guys.. xD heh..

information from http://twilighters.org/twilight-movie

2008-12-19T20:10:00.002+08:00

quotes from new moon!! xD heh..

“Which is tempting you most, my blood or my body?” - Bella

“It was like someone had died- like I had died. Becuse it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also losing a whole future, a whole family-the whole life that I had chosen…: -Bella Swan

“Even here, on the point of death, his name tore against my un healed wounds like a serrated edge.” -Bella Swan

“I’d cried myself to sleep over the boy. His harsh rejection had punched a painful new hole in what was left of my chest of my chest. He’d left a new nightmare behind him, like an infection in a sore - the insult after the injury.” -Bella Swan

“It would have been a very good time to talk, to get the answers I needed–needed but not really wanted; I was already despairing at the thought of waht I might hear. We had an uninterrupted block of tire ahead of us, and he couldn’t escape me on an airplane–well, not easily at least.” - Bella

“Edward seems perfectly content to hold me in his arms, his fingers tracing my face again and again. I touched his face, too. I couldn’t stop myelf though I was afraid it would hurt me later, when I was alone again.: -Bella

“How can I put this so that you’ll believe me? You’re not sleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy…” -Edward Cullen to Bella Swan

“The way I feel about you will never change. Of course I love you and there’s nothing you can do about it!” - Isabella Marie Swan to Edward Cullen

“By the way I’m not leaving you. I’m not going anywhere. Not without you” - Edward to Bella

“I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldn’t remember how I’d managed it before.” Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.123

“Happiness. It made the whole dying thing pretty bearable.” -Bella

“The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made.” -Bella

“Here in his arms, it was so easy to fantasize that he wanted me. I didn’t want to think about his motivations now—about whether he acted this way to keep me calm while we were still in danger, or if he just felt guilty for where we were and relieved that he wasn’t responsible for my death. Maybe the time apart had been enough that I didn’t bore him for the moment. But it didn’t matter. I was so much happier pretending.”
Bella Swan, New Moon,
“It was heaven—right smack in the middle of hell.” -Bella

“How many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? I’d lived through a lot that should have finished me in the last few days, but it didn’t make me feel strong. Instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one word could shatter me..” -Bella

“Option three: Edward loved me. The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time. And no matter how much more special or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him, so would he always be mine.” -Isabella Swan

haha.. i got this from one website.. not reli sure if is correct.. xD heh..
new moon made me cry..
cause i understand the pain.. sob sob..

2008-12-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

i don know if this is possible but i'm trying to post using handphone now. hope it works though. i'm far too lazy to on the computer. it takes a much longer time than this. haha. my maid is going to come back today around midnight. cant wait! hope she bought something back for me! but i don tink she will.. hmmmm.. just glad that she's back. cause the food i've been eating for the past 2 weeks are totally terrible. haii.. i haven finish my homework. haii.. especially the socialstudies project. that thing is driving me mad.. mad as in angry not insane. haii.. cant wait for school to start. like that i don have to be so pathetic at home. haii..

been very lonely.. haii..

2008-12-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

oh yeah!!!!
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reli nice clothes!!! :D

2008-12-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

zhe wei's views on stuff are interesting..
but i won't take it seriously.. haha..
'cause.. i find too unrealistic.. hmmm..
like it onli happens in movies and shows..

i still reading twilight and toto chan..
toto chan is so optimistic.. haha.. makes me happi..
twilight helps me remember certain stuff.. haha..
cool!!!

doing A MATHS HOMEWORK FROM TUITION..
OMG.. I HATE SURDS.. -.-
stupid square roots.. argh.. idiot.. zzzzz..
log are so much more fun to play with..
bases are fun to play with..
square roots are so opposite of fun.. -.-
cant wait to start trigo!!! xD heh.. lols..

i sitll got alot qns to do.. and tmr morning is my tuition..
so gonna die.. -.- haii.. sadded..

heard views from diff ppl..
it got me thinking again..
but my decision won change..

2008-12-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

11days..
took me 9days to muster enuff courage..
i have roughly said what i wanted to say..
there's still more.. but.. nevermind..
the most important thing i said le..
happy now.. heh..
don't know if that was the right thing to do though..
hmm.. sigh.. nevermind..

watching ch8 9pm show.. kindda nice.. heh..

daisuki.

2008-12-10T17:02:00.002+08:00

i finally finish watching twilight the movie.
i only liked the last 40mins of the movie.
it's the most interesting part. heh..
i heard that summit is still looking for director for new moon..
hope they find it soon.

going to read twilight books again!!! xD
and plus chiong finish the 2chinese book.. T.T

i've made my decision.. heh..
not giving up..

2008-12-08T20:15:00.002+08:00

i had a dream about him again..
i was at my pri sch.. and he was thr also..
then i saw this irritating enemy of mine in pri sch..
the irritating enemy was laughin at me.. insulting me..
i was angry.. so i went up to him.. i wanted to punch..
then i was stopped by someone.. pulled away..
that someone was hmm..
i find my dream abit weird.. haii..

i got sick.. hmm.. flu, sore throat, ulcers..
later get fever.. hmm.. haii..
these few days de weather so cold.. haii..

imissyousomuch..

2008-12-08T19:48:00.002+08:00

1) The person who tagged you is?
MARY!!!!!!! hehe.. (got tagged again.. lols.. )

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
hmm.. she's my mei!

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
1. Cute!!!
2. more cute!!!
3. okay i tink adorable better!!
4. Cheery!! (happi happi always one.)
5. she's good at an1 wei4-ing ppl.. hmm..

4) The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
being there for me.

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
once when i poke her cheek, then her reply was so adorable!!
she said, 'omg, please..(with a diao face)' haha.. xD

6) If he/she becomes your lover, u will?
i will go for a checkup.. to see if im les or sth..

7) If he/she becomes your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be?
hmm.. she needs to learn how to take care of herself.. hmmm..
and don't give in to yr brother!!!

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
hmm.. probably fight back.. even though kindda sad..

9) Question 9 is a repeat..

10) You want to tell for him/her now is?
STAND UP TO YOUR BRO!! FIGHT BACK!! DON XIN1 RUAN3!!

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
great kid!! good future.. hehe..

12) How do you think people around you feel about you?
like i said.. emo girl..

13) The characteristics you love of yourself are?
don't know..

14) On the contrary, characteristics you hate of yourself are?
almost everything..

15) The most ideal person you want to be is?
sawada tsunayoshi!!! somehow he's able to accept everybody.. even enemies..
and he also can sense ppl's feelings well..

16) For people that care and like you, say something to them.
tytyty..

17) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1) jiing wei (if u have a blog..)
2) jermaine
3) huizhen
4) jairia
5) lindy
6) linjing
7) shawn
8) rebecca

2008-12-07T20:18:00.002+08:00

currently making a blog for katekyo hitman reborn!!
for myself of course.. xD haha..
gonna upload videos and mangas.. xD heh.. xD lols..
currently upload 64episode onli.. sadded..

and i got a new handphone!!
W960i!! xD i tink.. xD heh... touch screen de.. wheee..
it's now chargin.. i 12midnight can use..
8GB internal memory!! xD wheeee.. xD

haii.. 1week le.. hmmm..
cried alot yesterday.. haii..
then dreamt about him everyday..
my mom thinks im crazy..
cause i laugh at not funny things..
and sad at funny things..
and also.. i volunteered to do chores..
shocking!!! i sweep, i mop, i fold clothes, i iron..
then make myself damn freaking tired..

请不要放开我的双手，不要缺席我的以后。。。

2008-12-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

ok.. i went to yanjun blog and i saw this.. im quite lag la.. lols..

1) The person who tagged you is?
yanjun.. -.-

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
he's my 'bro'.. lols..

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
baka..baka and more baka.. haha..

4) The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
he treat me to arcade!!

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
i don rmb anything he said.. onli his horrible singing..

6) If he/she becomes your lover, u will?
kill myself.. (how could i be so stupid????)

7) If he/she becomes your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be?
i don know.. and i don wanna noe..

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
hahahaha.. he shall die a horrible death!!!!!

9) Question 9 is a repeat.. diaos..

10) You want to tell for him/her now is?
don ever beatbox without covering your mouth..

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
baka..

12) How do you think people around you feel about you?
erm.. silly girl.. emo girl..

13) The characteristics you love of yourself are?
nothing.. maybe being short..

14) On the contrary, characteristics you hate of yourself are?
many things.. im too imperfect...

15) The most ideal person you want to be is?
i wanna be like sawada tsunayoshi in katekyo hitman reborn!!!

16) For people that care and like you, say something to them.
thanks for caring about me.. and i won die so soon.. maybe a few years later..

17) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1. Yijing
2. mary
3. waimeng
4. selina
5. hongming
6. jasline
7. jason
8. bennett
9. erm running out of ppl.. yanny..
10. erm.. anybody who wanna do..

why do u keep appearing in my dreams?

2008-12-04T19:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday had 2K chalet..
which doesn't felt like it was a chalet..
no bbq.. and had to find our own food..
mostly played arcade..
and went for a dip in the pool..
yeah.. then yanjun's dad drive me home,
cause yijing's dad came in a motorcycle.. lols..

anw.. KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN IS SO LOVEDD!!!

anime and manga now become my most important ting.. hehe..
(erm.. apart from serious stuff like studying..etc..)

and i love the basketball machine in the arcade!!!!!
woooooooooooo~~ highest score is 111points..
noob right? but the coolest thing is.. I BEAT YANJUN!!!!!!!
haha.. lols.. yijing too pro le.. 222.. wtc.. T.T

and sad news.. (and im most probably the laggest one..)
TWILIGHT IS NC16.. -.-
I CANT WATCH IT AT THE CINEMAS.. SADDED... haiis..
why nc16??? T.T haiis...

我如何假装 ,我心里不再有你 ?

2008-12-02T15:27:00.002+08:00

i don't know how i manage to survive this long..
maybe because i still feel that there's still hope..
but.. the truth is there isn't anymore..
got so many things to say.. to ask..
don't know where to start..
don't know what to believe..

today, i went abit crazy.. sot sot..
haii.. i think i will become crazy one day..
boohoohoo.. haii.. i wanna cry.. haii..
i reli going nuts.. boohoohoo.. T.T

i don't know how long i can continue..

2008-12-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

sigh.. headache in the morning..
drink beer too much.. zzz..
yesterday celebrated maid birthday..
so got beer.. and cake and many food..
my jiu2 liang4 not good.. haah..
2 can then i abit blurr blurr liao.. hmmms..
but i continue lor.. nan2 de2 my father let..
but not that much also.. didn overshot 6 can..

slept until 11am.. was dreaming..
i was walking around at white sands mall..
then i walked into the food court..
then i saw... erm..haii..
then i was happy.. i walked towards...erm..haii..
then suddenly remember that..
then stop walking.. but he just walk right pass me..
then walk away..

i got mixed feelings..
so angry, so sad, so disappointed, so worried..
damn luan4 now.. haii..

love is being together..
how can u call it love when you let go..

2008-11-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to think..
so many people tell me different things on what i should do..
but in the end it still is the same..

haii..
should i be happi?
should i be sad?
should i be thankful?
should i be angry?
should i hate you?
should i love you?
should i...wait?

from tomorrow onwards, my maid is going back to her country..
for vacation only, of course.. (i couldn't survive without a maid..)
so i would be doing chores, buying food, and cooking..
but hopefully i won't get to cook..
don't want to poison people..

well, there's actually one person i don't mind poisoning..
she just a little girl that irks me..

9.13 9 19 19.25 15 21

2008-11-30T20:10:00.002+08:00

What Hurts the Most - rascal flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

2008-11-30T13:19:00.002+08:00

sheng hui recommended me this song..
i don't know if it was suppose to cheer me up or wat..
but this song is nice.. and emo.. sigh..
feeling so helpless.. sigh..

You Can - David Archuleta

Mmmmm....

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one I've been dreamin' of.
If anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love...

Only you can take me sailin' in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself,
It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Show me that good things come to those who wait

forever.. it doesn exist..

2008-11-29T20:36:00.001+08:00

something happened..

now i feel so weak..

feel so lost..

none of my close close fren online..

no one to talk to..

feeling so lonely..

don't leave me.. pls?

2008-11-27T13:51:00.003+08:00

i temporarily have become crippled..
yesterday went to take videos of prom for school..
keep kneeling until cannot straightened my leg liao..
sigh.. my knee so weak.. aching like hell now..

saw many people dress up.. and some of them i like..
some of them abit too much le..
and some don't even suit them..
and some dress up too little.. could have been more beautiful..

saw mary in a black dress.. so cute!!
look lik flower girl.. xD haha..
so sad never take picture of her..

anyway i last minute kena dragged to take video one..
sigh.. at first felt super embarrassed luh..
all dress so nice and our cca is like.. so weird.. haha..
then my senior said, 'normally muz dress extraordinary then can stand out,
now dress ordinary can become extraordinary liao.'
haha so funny la.. xD haha..

the performance was ok ok..
haha one cca senior was lead singer in one of the band..
so omg.. didn noe he can sing.. -.-
and go choose the song...that... zzz..
haii.. he sing tong hua.. haha..
i still remember i last time cried when i heard that song also..
haii.. summore i was videoing that performance..
so kns can.. zzz... lucky never cry.. haii..
but abit emo after that liao.. and felt like sleeping..
damn tired.. sleep for 5hours the day before..

haii.. i onli liked the micheal jackson impersonation performance
and the dance to tuo4 diao4 the song de game.. most enjoyable and funny..
prom king and queen was so expected..
gracy and jasper i tink that is their names.. hmmm..

gracy was super beautiful that night.. :D

caught 2 glimpse of you..
first time i felt so happi since school ended.. :D

2008-11-14T21:50:00.002+08:00

yes people im emoing again..
and i don't like it one bit..
been trying to think of happy things good things..
but i got no where to start..
so i asked someone abt myself..
(cause i emoing abt myself cause i see nothing in me)
but he just kept his mouth shut..
haii.. am i thinking too much?
keeping quiet got alot of meanings..
maybe there's nothing u know about me.
or maybe there's nothing good about me and u dowan me know..
or maybe im too much of a bother, and ure just being nice not to dao me..
as u can see all negatives, this happens when im emo..

who introduced emo to me? ~~i forgot~~
but ever since then.. im in a bad shape..
waiting for someone to save me..

2008-11-14T20:24:00.002+08:00

1 BELINDA SNG WAN XUAN F S2-E HCL C2 3B
2 CAROLYN CHAN HUI MING F S2-K CL C1 3B
3 CHEN SI HENG JOLIN F S2-E HCL C2 3B
2 CHERYL BOH SU MIN F S2-L CL C1 3B
6 KOH JIA TIAN EUGENIA F S2-J CL C2 3B
9 KOH WEI SHAN F S2-K HCL C2 3B
10 LEE CAI YING RACHAEL F S2-K HCL C2 3B
9 LIEW WEN MIN F S2-J HCL C2 3B
4 LOH YONG FANG F S2-L CL C1 3B
15 LU HUI CHEN F S2-K HCL C1 3B
16 NAR SHER MAY F S2-K CL C1 3B
5 NEO SHER JUAN MANDY F S2-H CL C2 3B
7 PE JIA JUE AMANDA F S2-L CL C1 3B
13 SU YAN HUI F S2-J HCL C2 3B
10 TAN XIN QING F S2-L CL C1G 3B
10 TANG KAY BOON BELLE F S2-H CL C2 3B
13 VIVIAN SEAH KATH LIN F S2-H HCL C2 3B
19 YEO SHI HUI F S2-K HCL C1 3B
21 AUSTON QUEK XIN WEI M S2-G CL C1 3B
14 CHEN WEIJIE M S2-L CL C1 3B
15 CHOO TZE WEE JASPER M S2-L CL C1 3B
26 FUNG THENG FOONG FABIAN M S2-K HCL C1G 3B
18 JEREMY QUAH CHEN CHER M S2-L CL C1 3B
22 KAN WEI HUAT M S2-J CL C2 3B
29 KENNETH NEO M S2-E HCL C2 3B
24 LAM ZHI WEI MAX M S2-J HCL C1G 3B
26 NG KENG FU M S2-J HCL C1 3B
31 ONG KAI FENG M S2-H CL C1 3B
31 TAN JUN WEI M S2-J HCL C1 3B
33 TAN KHAI RUI M S2-H HCL C2 3B
35 YANG WEI M S2-K CL C1 3B
35 YONG WEI ANN M S2-H HCL C2 3B

my future class bahs.. haiis.. 3B!!!!!!
lols.. feeling excited and not excited..
this is a weird feeling..
but they put diff combi in one class..
then how? switch class like hell? o.O

2008-11-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

hmmms... abit late though.. tags replied.. xD

10 Nov 08, 23:31
yan min: -tagged- (sorry is this considered spam?)
not spam la.. xD haha.. xD
10 Nov 08, 23:31
yan min: but anyways, be happy:D but dun the wrong happy la (lol don't be liek me)
oooooooooo.. INSANITY!!! XD *random*
10 Nov 08, 23:30
yan min: it's 11.30 and i can't sleep ._.
lols.. xD i slept at 1am lehs.. xD worse than you.. T.T
10 Nov 08, 23:30
yan min: yo leeeeeeeeee(:
yo yannyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. xD
6 Nov 08, 20:28
dex: always emo... -.-III
i wan emo.. -.- (jk nia..)
6 Nov 08, 20:28
dex: dun despair le lah...
-.- i wan despair..
5 Nov 08, 22:47
MARILYN! (: boooo! hehehhe. LALALA~ can help me check what time that i asked them to meeeet in the sms please! ;D i forgot le. HEHEHEHEHE. XP
10am..
5 Nov 08, 12:49
lindy: HELLO lee =D haha.
HEY LINDY!!
4 Nov 08, 21:05
soul: yo here 2 tag haha
o.O yo too..
4 Nov 08, 19:59
huizhen: wahh. u really cut your hair wor?
yupps!! i cut it!!

2008-11-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

okay.. i was emo-ing the past few days,
and maybe abit now also.. but i realise if i keep watching
television and keep myself occupied, i won't think too much.
it's a good thing, but sometimes it back fires.. hmmm..

anyway.. xD who can answer my question!!!
when snow melts, what does it becomes?
hehe, hmmm, who get correct then...
...GIVE YOU PRESENT!! xD haha..

okay, i wanna watch 007 and madagascar 2..
who wan watch with me?????
i dowan watch alone.. sigh..
i dowan be so lonely.. sigh..
so who going to watch or wanna watch can tell me???
please please and thanks thanks!!

i don't know what i have become..
~~a hideous monster~~?

2008-11-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

when snow melts, what does it become?

2008-11-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

why can't i hate you?....

2008-11-07T20:03:00.003+08:00

today went to school earlier 'cause nothing to do at home..
saw amelia, bennett, junyang, si hui, genevieve, dexter, waimeng
liang jie, mary, edna, huiyi, lance, and cca people..

crap seniors, say at 3J i go there at 1pm nobody there at all..
cca was damn random and boring and tiring..
keep wanting to sleep.. sigh..

cca ended at like 4.35pm..
then walked down with mary..
then go eat Macs alone.. *sobs sobs*
then walked home..

was surprised that i had the urge to walked home today..
usually i feel damn lazy and want to take bus de..
but then today i walked home.. haha..
was a lonely walk home..
then think alot about the past..

i reached home at around 6pm..
then bathe then come online.. haha..

don't forget me..please..

2008-11-06T21:06:00.003+08:00

i don't want to be emo also..
but is like sometimes..
i really don't want to talk, don't want to bother, and just wanna cry..
example, i heard something then suddenly..
i don't want to talk, don't want to bother, and just wanna cry..
it will just take one sec for me to become like that la..

argh.. i don't know how to explain..
im bad at explaining stuff..

sad one moment, happy one moment..
some one help me.. T.T

2008-11-06T19:43:00.002+08:00

i got c2..
it's what i wanted..
but.. im not happy at all..
i know why.. and it's very stupid..
sigh.. i should be happy..
everyone i know got what they wanted..(i think)
congrats to them!!!

i'm really happy that some people got in triple science!!
double grats to them man!!! so smart!!!

if you're happy then i'm happy..
and grats..

2008-11-04T21:22:00.002+08:00

I slacked the whole day.

I'm back to the emo me again..
I just can't kick it i guess..
I think i went emo 'cause of the dream i had..
too much memories at one go..
so the whole day even though i looked like i watched tv..
i was actually emo..
kept thinking of stuffs i didn't want to think..
then i kept hitting myself when i thought about them..
so now my forehead got blueblack le..
but my fringe cover it.. so nobody saw it..

and yes huizhen!! I CUT MY HAIR!! WOOHOO!! :D

sigh.. i keep seeing msn contacts..
keep thinking about stuffs.. sigh..
argh!! i think tonight going to sleep after midnight again..
sigh.. someone teach me how to keep those thoughts away..

okay i admit i miss him alot.. so much that i actually cry sometimes.. sound retarded right..
sigh.. i hate myself alot now.. really hate myself..

2008-11-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

I'm going to reply tag here.
I think I very lagged. *haha*

30 Oct 08, 23:07
MARILYN! (: why your tag seems so ._. HAHAHAAH YAY! CCCAAAA TM!:D
wat u mean by ._. sia.. lols.. ._. to me is diao u noe.. haha.. xD
30 Oct 08, 21:34
Yu Jia: Hellos, Yay, Can I Have this dance is sooo nice... hahas, take care, hahas
OOOOOOOO.. THAT SONG IS FREAKING NICE MAN!!
30 Oct 08, 21:26
MARILYN! (: HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOO +waves frantically+ LALALALA~
i see a waving hand and hear a loud loud loud sound onli.. hmmmmm..
28 Oct 08, 23:04
jUnYaNg: now ur turn to have a dead blog..xD
xD won't be as dead as yours de.. xD i feel like breaking your record.. haha..x D
24 Oct 08, 18:58
ZhEkAi: hi
YOS ZHE KAI!!
21 Oct 08, 22:32
yan min: sorry fer double posting again -__-. ps the '...' below up to you to decide (:
oooooo.. and u come and hug me!!! muahahaha!!!
21 Oct 08, 22:32
yan min: sorry lag, double post. anyway. i heard from amanda and felicia today that my pic was in your blog so i hopped over and...
hehe!! don't you look cute? xD
21 Oct 08, 22:32
yan min: sorry lag, double post. anyway. i heard from amanda and felicia today that my pic was in your blog so i hopped over and...
hehe!! don't you look cute? xD
21 Oct 08, 22:31
yan min: ah. LOLZ
o.O
21 Oct 08, 22:31
yan min: ah. LOLZ
o.O

i finally finished all wheeee!!(there's not much anyway.. haha)

2008-11-03T19:51:00.002+08:00

I changed my blogskin again.
'Cause I changed my hairstyle,
I CUT MY HAIR SHORT!!!
ABOVE SHOULDER!! WOOHOO!!
(back to the point..)
so I thought why not change my blogskin too.
And.. TAA-DAA!!
I changed!! Okay, that was a bit lame.

Today went to a REAL PUB!!
'Cause Infocomm Day thing was held there.
The place was quite small actually.
But it looked so cool!!
And the best part is *drum roll*
DANIEL ONG WAS THE DJ/HOST/WATEVER U CALL IT!!
another best part is *drum roll*
I won $20 voucher(POPULAR), and $20 voucher(CHALLENGER)
BUT I SOOOOO WANTED THAT SONY ERICSSON PHONE!!

anyway Lindy and Wendy got win something in the lucky draw too.
Lindy won $80 voucher(CHALLENGER)
Wendy won same thing as me, $20 voucher(CHALLENGER)

Oh! and i just found out that the adobe student pack thingy..
CAN USE ON 1COMPUTER ONLY!!!
feeling so sad now.. sigh.. don't know if want to buy or not..
cause if the computer crash.. then so wasted.. *sob sob*

now got flu already. walked in the rain.. sigh..

i didn't get to see you at all..

2008-10-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

seriously.. im avoiding everything that troubles me now..
even the smallest ting i also avoid..
argh.. why i become like that.. sigh..

tmr got cca..
CAN SEE MARY WENNIE YANNY AND EVERYBODY ELSE..
SO HAPPI.. I HOPE THEY GO OK..

i hope i can see u in sch tmr..
looking forward..

2008-10-29T21:13:00.001+08:00

Can I Have This Dance

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

this song is nice nice!! haha.. xD
i love this song and 'right here right now'.. :D
haha.. lols..

2008-10-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

at first wanted to break junyang's record(he almost 1mth nv post)..
but since im bored.. so post lor.. erm.. haha..
alot things happened.. im very confused..
i've been tinking alot at night.. tats why sleep so late..
everytime is after 12midnight then sleep de..

i cant tink properly..
i reli hate myself..
so many emotions at one go..
i don't even know if im tinking the right way now..
maybe these 2mths i can tink properly bahs..

i reli wanna runaway..
treat tat nothing has happened..
and everything was still the same..
but i know something's wrong..
and runaway will make it worse..
no more avoiding for me..
gonna make a decision..

2008-10-25T13:30:00.002+08:00

My computer has virus.
All my fault.
Trying to get rid of it.
But can't.
Don't know what my father will do.
I need help!! *sobs*

2008-10-24T12:32:00.002+08:00

I find it hard to be happy anymore.

mary heard u got sore throat.. and cant tok liao..
get better soon hor.

don't know wat to do..

i don't think anyone knows how.

got bruises.

clumsy me.

ha..ha..ha..

haii..

im practically writing anything that comes into my mind..

happi eating..

sorry for troubling you.

thanks.

wonder wat state will i be in if u weren here.

so..thanks.

it's been so long..
i miss those times.. T.T

2008-10-23T16:22:00.004+08:00

I shall post about what happened today and what happened yesterday.
yesterday had maths tuiton.
The teacher started on A maths first if I'm not wrong.
Learnt about indices(don't know how spell) and surds.
Then had to solve equations and stuff.
Brain nearly died.
I took three hours just to finish around half the questions.
My brain lagged during the tuition.
Had a feeling it was because of the sweet I took.
Hmmms.. But in the end had homework.
I'm going to do it today so ... wish me luck!
Reached home at about 6pm and was freaking tired.

Today, was the last day of school.
Had a nice chat with Jasline, Jing and JinYi in the morning.
We were fooling around and stuff like that.
So we missed the bell for assembly.
And me and yijing ran like nobody's business.
Then jasline and jinyi like strolled down or something.
But they arrived later than us.
Dr Boon gave the morning devotion and we were sent back to class.

Then we started spring cleaning.
At first I didn't do anything 'cause my table was very clean.
No vandalism no scratches and all that.
So I slacked and read a short story.
After reading, I felt bored so I help to clean window with HsiaoLan and YiJing.
But I'm too short so can't clean on top de.
So I stopped and slacked again.
Then I saw Yu Jia alone cleaning the wall behind.
So ke lian. So I go help him.
But I no strength, didn't help that much.

After that Jeffrey come help and he was damn strong.
He just wipe and gone liao. So I let him do with yu jia
and I start on another wall. Soon other people join in to help.
Dust was everywhere la. But I didn't sneeze.
So surprising. ('cause usually I would.)
I clean until my arm very suan1.

After that took report book.
Turned out my level position didn't change.
It was still 334. So, I was right when I saw it the first time.
I had 1 A1, 3 A2, 2 B3, 3 B4, and ONE FREAKING F9.
that idiot subject that pulled me down to hell.
HISTORY!!! ARGH!!! so angry..
and I'm not even going to take it also.
They won't put me there ... right!?
Please don't!! *sigh*

After school, went home with Jin Yi.
Ate lunch together. :D laughed alot.
and also went to her house.
Just got back home around 40mins ago.
her room is so cool and her clothes is so cute and cool~~
I borrowed one to wear for tomorrow. *laugh*

I think I'll look retarded somehow. xD

can you go out with me mahs? T.T
it's onli been a few hours and i'm missing u already.. T.T
how can i survive the holidays.. T.T

2008-10-21T21:25:00.002+08:00

Sorry everyone, I'm too lazy to go to your blogs and tag so...
...I shall reply tags here!

20 Oct 08, 22:28
amanda: lol
O.o..
20 Oct 08, 22:27
amanda: ;D
and since when yanny is yours? O.o..
20 Oct 08, 22:27
amanda: and omg omg omg i seee my yanmin !!!!!!!!!
lols.. Yanny last time damn cute rite? xD heh..
20 Oct 08, 22:26
amanda: where's my link t.t
xD sorry, I lost almost everyone's link, these are the few I can remember.
So if u want me link then tag. xD heh.. sorry.. :X
20 Oct 08, 11:06
ongwm: XD. Sian, my youngest primary school photos down to Primary 4 only XD
ooo.. these photos are taken by my primary school teachers.
20 Oct 08, 11:05
ongwm: sorry if that looked like spam, it's just "SO CUTE!!" expanded to fit 10 seconds.
I don't mind people spamming. haha. lols. of course cant spam everything la.. zz..
20 Oct 08, 11:05
ongwm:
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Who is cute? O.o..
19 Oct 08, 23:50
MARILYN! (: LEEE YOU SHRUNG!:D HAHAA
what u mean i shrunk? -.-
19 Oct 08, 23:50
MARILYN! (: srsly! wennie looks like herself. I THINK SHE CHAO PRETTTY AND CUTEEE!:D hahaha. and vicky really is small. JYANG looks his normal retarded self. XP hahahah. yannny is like no change at all.
YUPPS WENNIE IS PREEEEEEETTY =D and he whr got retarded.. T.T
19 Oct 08, 23:49
MARILYN! (: OMGOSH~ JYANG YOU VICKY YANNY WENNNIE IS SO KAWAII! AND CUIDAN!? o:
YUPPS!! EVERYONE WAS CUTE!! EXCEPT ME. -.- haha.. and thats cuidan i tink. xD looks
like her anyway. xD heh.. lols..
19 Oct 08, 23:05
soul: jie dun be sad, haha n why everybody is typing 2 times
who da hell is soul.. -.-
18 Oct 08, 16:04
Hsiao Lan: oops.......

18 Oct 08, 16:04
Hsiao Lan: Yo! don't be so sad la.. miss farah said that the position might be wrong so cheer up k? this is not the end of the world yet jia you next year k...
IM SO GONNA DIE!! SOB SOB..
18 Oct 08, 16:04
Hsiao Lan: Yo! don't be so sad la.. miss farah said that the position might be wrong so cheer up k? this is not the end of the world yet jia you next year k...
teacher said is around that mark.. T.T sob sob..
18 Oct 08, 09:53
Yu Jia: hello!!! lols dun so sad leh... cheer up:) sec 2 exams finish only wad... still got long way to go b4 o lvls... maybe u can get a subj combi u'll like wad... jyjy... dun be so sad le...
feel so noob now.. sianed.. T.T
18 Oct 08, 09:53
Yu Jia: hello!!! lols dun so sad leh... cheer up:) sec 2 exams finish only wad... still got long way to go b4 o lvls... maybe u can get a subj combi u'll like wad... jyjy... dun be so sad le...
T.T but but.. haii.. T.T
17 Oct 08, 23:20
ongwm: aww, don't worry lah . Anyways, i'm sure you'll still look okay with short hair =X. you did your best, so you have no regrets! (maybe except for Hist XD)
.. i look freaking funny with short hair okay.. hist i really did my best.. seriously..
i jus cant rmb anyth i studied.. is like i blank out or sth.. haii.. sad.. T.T

2008-10-21T20:09:00.005+08:00

Troy & Gabriella - Right Here Right Now lyrics

Troy:
Hmm, yea
Hey yea

Can you imagine?
What could happen?
If we could have any dream
I wish this moment
Was ours to own it
And that it would never leave
Then I would thank that star
That made our wish come true (come true) oh yeah
Cause he knows that where you are
Is where I should be too

CHORUS:
Troy:
Right here, right now
I'm looking at you and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I'll promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's
Both:
You and me

Gabriella:
If this was forever what could be better?
We already proved it was
But in 2, 123 hours abandon the universe
Gonna make you everything (everything)
In our whole world change (it's our change, yeah)
And you know that where we are (where we are)
Will never be the same oh no oh no

CHORUS:
Both:
Right here, right now
I'm looking at you and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's you and me

Gabriella:
Oh we know it's coming
And it's coming fast
(As long when there's you and me) (Oh yeah)

Troy:
So let's make the second last, make it last!

Troy:
Right here, oh right now
Troy:
Yeah, I'm looking at you Gabriella:
And my heart loves the view
Both:
Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait for some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's you and me
(You and me)

Ohh you and me

But right now there's you and... me!



Song lyrics  Right Here Right Now lyrics

I listened to some of High School Musical(Senior Years)'s songs
and I liked this the most.
The rest of the songs sort of didn't reach its fullest.
Like when the song reaching the climax then suddenly
dropped back again.
That's what I think only, so those HSM fans don't come flame me.

Today, collected the money for the book.
Twenty-seven books in total. Some of them didn't buy.
At first thought I could carry them up by myself.
But the books were very heavy.
So I tried calling the boys to help me.
I saw Eric i asked him help me.
He said 'no' and walked away.
Then I called yanjun he said 'I in table tennis room liao la. not free.'
Then I called yujia, he didn't pick up. *sobs*
I know calling the other guys is like totally useless already.
So I carried all the books up myself.
Nearly died halfway. Okay, maybe not.
But really very tiring.
And my arms red red after carrying all.
At least I manage to do things I never done before!
Feeling accomplished(and silly now)!! *smiles*

Been reading mangas for many days now.
I read finish 'You're my girlfriend.', '7th Period is a Secret'
10 chapters of 'Full House Kiss',
12 chapters of 'Ouran High School Host Club'
19 chapters of 'Fruits Basket'.
All of them are nice!
I love 'Full House Kiss' and 'Fruits basket' the most!
They're not really about love and all those stuff.
So everybody can read!(I know some people who don't like love manga)

You seem so stranger to me.
But i know deep down, you're still the same person i know.
Did I do something wrong? T.T

2008-10-19T21:28:00.014+08:00

Came across this cute photos!!
Surely there will be some one you know.. :D

(ps. im inside too.. xD i look damn retarded..)

Wennie!!

Wan Jun, Tisa, Bryan, Hong Jun and Clement!!

Sean, Susi, Charmaine, Me and Soon Tim!!

Jun Yang, Yan Min, Jared, Gregory and Hui Xuan!!

Jordan, Caleb, Daniel Tan, Bryan(another one, i tink) and Wennie!!!

Sheena, Vivienne, Zhe Wei and Lindy!!!

Me in retarded clothes.. lol.. i remember i was reciting my rap for my sandwich. lols..

Wennie, Charmaine and Cui Dan!! haha.. :D

spot Tisa, Lindy or Hong Jie(thats his name rite? oops.. sorry.. T.T)?

Yanny!! Dexter!! Alvin!! Wan Jun!! Hong Jun!! Vicky!! :D

Spot me!! and jermaine(difficult..)?

Gregory.. hmmms.. weird look.. haha.. lols..

Hmms.. Shall post more pictures tomorrow..

Hopefully got time.. :D haha..

2008-10-19T20:24:00.002+08:00

Okay. I told my Mom about my results.
And guess what, she gave me a 'serve you right' face instead of the 'why? why you never work hard' face.
It was better this way.
But I don't think I really deserve all this ... do i?
Sigh... Maybe I do...

So when am I going to cut my hair?
I also don't know. I hope my Mom forgot about it.
Please let it be true!! Sigh...

This week is last week of school for this year.
I'm going to miss everybody when holiday starts.
I can't believe I'm saying this but ... I WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!! *sobs*
At least in school, we got friends to play around.
It's so much better than staying at home and lying and slacking.

At first I've got plans for tomorrow.
But...it didn't went well. Sigh...
I got a feeling it was my fault...I really don't know. *sobs*
I never seem to do things right. *sobs*

Waiting for Tuesday and my report book to come.
Don't like to wait. It only makes me very nervous.
Can't sleep properly. *sobs*

Really wanted to go to same class with some people.
But I'm scared I can't make it. Sigh.
Just hope that I don't go to same class as...ahem..Benjamin.
Two years is enough, don't make a third year. *sobs*
However, choosing between being in the same class as Benjamin and seven subjects..
I guess I rather same class as Benjamin.
I'm that desperate. *sobs*

How am I going to spend my day tomorrow? *thinks*

Plans for tomorrow:
1) Do english vocab exercises
2) Memorize some japanese words
3) Read more manga online
4) Watch my Hanazakari No Kimitachi E
5) Sms...you know who. :D (of course when he's free la.)
6) Plan my time for the holidays.
7) Get people to watch HSM3 on friday!! (hopefully celebrate DA GE's BIRTHDAY!!)

is it my fault? T.T
i'm sorry!! T.T really sorry!! T.T

2008-10-17T19:05:00.002+08:00

I WILL TRY TO BE HAPPY!!! HAHA!!
i know alot people very worried about me la.. haha..
cause i keep crying and keep emoing.. haii..
sorry people.. T.T make you all worry.. sorry..

i will try to be more happi!!
after all i've got alot of things other people in the world doesn't have!!
wheeeeee.. haha.. =D

got back the final results today..
damn crappish my result..
is like 64%.. lols.. haii.. die liao lor..
maybe will get into 7 subjects.. haii..
I JUST WANT A NORMAL DOUBLE SCI CLASS!!!
I DOWAN GO 7 SUBJECTS.. sob sob.. haiis..

alot people say i won't go la.. haii...
but the paper i see my position is like 334.. haii..
even though ms farah say got something wrong with the position..
but i don't think mine got any wrong.. cause.. my marks low..
haii.. so even if got wrong the position will get lower onli..
and i don't want that!! haii..

how am i suppose to tell my mom..
i scared she give me the 'why? why u never work harder' de face..
i will feel like i dui bu qi her.. haii..
plus, she said if i don't go tri sci she will cut my hair short..
and now i MAY BE going to 7 subjects..
wonder how is she gonna take it.. haii..
cane me bahs.. haii.. i don't mind lor.. haii..
i rather she cane me then give me that face.. the scary one..
the one that make me feel damn guilty.. haii..

next year.. how am i gonna survive!!! omg.. T.T

u give me strength..
iloveyou so much!! <33
~~am i mad?~~ i don care if i am mad.. :D

2008-10-16T17:02:00.002+08:00

these days are the saddest days of my life..
been crying alot..
cause of results and cause of him..

why did it all happen at the same time..
the results and his words just so hurtful..
they are like knifes liddat.. keep stabbing me..
they just want to see me cry.. so keep stabbing me..
haii.. i keep glueing back.. then they keep makin cuts..
haii.. now i don feel like glueing back..
even though alot people want me to be happi..
but just so hard.. haii..
every little sad news.. i will cry one..
haii.. i need some one to talk to... i need!!
but please some one very close to me.. haii..

why you think that i don't care about you when i really do.. haii..
make me feel like watever i did last time was useless.. and not needed..
haii.. i don't deserve any happiness anyway.. haii..
maybe i should be happi that things actually happens to me..
at least im not forgotten.. haii..

i don't want to be emo.. but everytime u make me emo de..
haii.. sort of like my world revolves around yours..
every thing u do affect me.. every thing u say affect me.. haii..
even if is small stuff.. i can emo about it also..
i just cant help it.. you matter too much to me.. haii..
is this wrong? is this not right? is this too much? tell me!!

i don't want to lie to you that time..
i know u worried abt me and want me go see..
i tot if i say i will go u will feel less worried bahs..
guess i use the wrong method.. haii.. im always wrong.. always..
but in the end i still went.. haii.. cant u forgive me?

haii.. i just don't deserve happiness..
i don't deserve anything..

trying so hard to put every sad news into my sad jar..
but it's piling up.. and it's getting harder to close it..

i've been thinknig..
you don't have to love me anymore..
i seem to be creating more troubles and problems then making you happi..
if leaving me is the best way to make you happi..
i don't mind it at all..
~~就让我一个人承受它。~~

2008-10-13T16:24:00.001+08:00

today played captain's ball.. haha..
we lost.. but it was fun.. very fun.. haha..

emoing again.. haii..

2008-10-12T11:18:00.002+08:00

i haven't eaten anything since lunch yesterday..
i don't feel hungry at all..
my mother thinks im crazy..
haha.. maybe i am..
i just don't feel hungry..
no appetitie.. whenever i see food i feel like vomitting..
sometimes i did vomit..

skipped dinner yesterday and today's breakfast..
i don't think im going to eat lunch also..
i don't feel like eating..

i slept for like 2hours only..
im so tired.. but everytime i close my eyes
i will open them again..
cause i see things i dowan see..
imaging something i dowan to happen..

don't do this to me.. T.T
please?
im at the edge of the cliff..
i feel like jumping.. T.T

10/11/2008, saturday

2008-10-11T17:03:00.002+08:00

i feel so..empty..

10/11/2008, saturday

2008-10-11T14:10:00.003+08:00

haii.. i don't know what to do at home le..
it's so boring.. and everyone got plans and i don't..
haii.. monday gonna have to play captains ball.. oh my..
maybe can release all my emoness.. haha.. but our cca is so gonna suck..
lols.. we're suppose to play with either concert band or english drama..
see which one win then we play lor.. haii..
but sure lose de la.. haii.. lols.. bored liao.. haii..

some one please talk to me.. haii..

please be happi..

10/10/2008, friday

2008-10-10T20:08:00.003+08:00

today had fever.. the fever brought me alot of bad luck..
science may flunk..
made some one emo..
me emoing..
haha..
wat a wonderful day..
haha.. i hate u fever!!! I HATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..

i know is wrong to hate the fever.. cause the whole problem is me..
is wat i did to make me have fever and my science flunk..
is wat i did to make some one emo..
is wat i did to some one that make me emo..
SO IS ALL MY FAULT..
so i shall apologise.. to everybody.. if i last time did something wrong.. i reli didn mean it..
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and forgive me also.. T.T

and to that person that i make emo today..
im a lan4 ren3 person.. i know..
i dono how u could tahan me for so long..
thank you and sorry..
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please forgive me? im reli sorry.. T.T
sorry.. T.T

如果这样也行不通，
我真的不懂该怎么做了。。
现在，我最需要的是你能原谅我。。
我真的太自私了。。
对不起。。
原谅我好吗？

10/09/2008, thursday

2008-10-09T13:57:00.003+08:00

today.. sadded sia.. haii.. maths.. walao..
the set notation question.. sianed... almost all crap answers..
haha.. dono la.. and some questions i forgot how do.. then..
just leave the working no final answer.. haha.. damn crap lor..
and the graph.. so cute la.. so small de.. haha.. lols..
so lame.. haii.. but i scared can fail lehs.. if i careless somewhere..
and some i do wrong.. THEN DIE!!! ARGHHHHH.. T.T haiis..
then chinese even worse la can.. i didn't study finish the words..
so is like.. i dono at all.. then the cheng yu i study ler..
but my memory no good.. then the answers hor..
i only can write 'jiu you zi qu' and 'chu er fan er'
rest all blank.. zao ju also blank.. haha.. so is like 18marks gone le..
hope my comprehension can get high high high.. haiis..

tomorrow science lehs!!!!!! excited!!! i also scared i dono how do..
or cannot remember.. T.T haii.. sadded.. i want die liao la.. haii..

emo all the way home.. bothered about today de exams and.....many things..
haiis.. sad..happi..sad..happi..how? haii..
nevermind.. i go read my science again.. haii..

why did i do that? why did i?
haii.. i feel so bad now..
i tot i could control myself.. T.T

10/08/2008, wednesday

2008-10-08T14:08:00.003+08:00

home so early.. i don't like it at all.. feels so weird..
but al least is better bah.. CAN STUDY CHINESE!! WHEEE!!
yay!! haha!! i feel so excited!! haha..
i calculated hors.. geog at least got A2!! hope nv left out anything in my anwers..
haii.. but get b3 i don't mind at all.. haha.. =D
english i hope i don't fail my comprehension la..
most i can get is 15marks.. close to fail le.. what the crap can.. haii..
SUMMARY PLEASE HELP ME!!!
i dowan fail.. haii.. sadded.. haii..

today during recess i was having alot of fun..
i laughed until i cried.. cause jinyi and jasline did something funny..and weird..
then i emo-ed.. i was very sad.. haii.. i tried to laugh to make me happy..
but i became more sad.. at the end of recess, emo liao..
haii.. so nevermind bahs.. haii..

now also emo.. i feel like i keep saying people this that..
actually i also like that.. haii.. sorry.. reli sorry..

don go.. don leave me.. T.T

10/07/2008, tuesday

2008-10-07T16:19:00.002+08:00

tomorrow's the exam..
i'm so freaking nervous..
first time so nervous about exams..
haii.. sianed.. something weird happened today..

during morning assembly..
i was bored.. but i was still listening..
my hands just felt bored.. so i started playing yijing's hair..
twirling and twirling.. then mr yeow talk about what not to bring to exams..
handphones blah blah.. the usuals la..
then csj came by.. i knew she was going to scold/nag/talk to me about the hair thingy..
so i stopped playing jing's hair..
then she say.. 'touch her hair one more time, and i will make you stay back and sweep every strand of hair in every classroom.'
lols.. if that's the case hor.. i don't need to sweep liao..
the hair so small and hard to see by naked eye..
if i cant see it i don't tink other ppl can see it too..
also people don drop that much hair.. so there's reli nothing to sweep.. haii..
after that she just walked away and i just stare into space..
diaos.. no devotion and assembly.. good news.. haha..

anyways..nothing really happened bahs..
okay.. nervous again.. tomorrow's it!!
oh ya.. heard 2g 16 people never come.. wow..
my class only got 4 people..
carolyn, rebecca, chelsea and benkok.. diao..
haha.. germaine said they pangseh her.. lols..
didn't want to go school too de..
but.. haii.. lazy ask my mom write excuse letter or take mc.. blah blah blah..
so go lo.. haha.. damn retarded actually haii..

the empty feeling is back again..
why won't it leave me alone..
just the day before exams.. omg..
go away.. haii.. maybe it's better..
liddat the feeling can pei wo..
then i won't be alone.. haha..
okay.. empty feeling stay..
don run away.. don leave me alone..

10/06/2008, monday

2008-10-06T16:54:00.003+08:00

must you do this to me just before the most important exams of all?
i can't handle all of them at once..
tell me what i should do.. haii..
maybe i shouldn't care so much..
after all most of them are none of my business..
haii.. but i can't.. argh...
need to concentrate.. argh..
this is hopeless.. *bangs on table*

how would my life be after the exams..
please let it be great.. T.T

10/05/2008, sunday

2008-10-05T13:33:00.003+08:00

i don't know what to do.. haii..
im so lost..
some one please tell me..

maybe i should just leave u alone?

10/04/2008, saturday

2008-10-04T19:12:00.002+08:00

im desperate for time!! i don't have enought time!! argh!!
so frustrating!! and when i want to talk to some one about it..
that some one never reply.. haii.. nvm..people are busy with their own studies..
lalalalala.. i don't care.. so i eat alot of snacks.. potato chips.. french fries..
and alot more.. then in the end.. i eat too much.. then too heaty..
so i had stomach ache.. lalalalala.. i don't really care..
damn angry now.. argh!!!!!! plus sad now also.. wat is this..
haii.. doing geog notes now.. haii.. yijing totally remember the notes la..
damn pro sia.. haii.. sadded..

monday got lessons with mr wee.. hopefully i can rmb the physics part in time..
haii.. im pathetic.. sianed..
still angry and sad.. argh...

and now i found out something else..

revision:
1) maths --> left mensuration
2) chinese --> totally never start yet.. haii.. die le..
3) geog --> left pollution + global warming
4) science --> left physics
5) english --> nothing to study bahs..

10/03/2008, friday

2008-10-03T20:07:00.002+08:00

today got alot of energy today..
used it all up during pe.. won jing in shooting.. haha..
i shot in 8 times and jing got 2 times.. yay!
first time lehs.. haii..

i no mood now..
i guess..
having the empty feeling again..
i guess..
im jus useless..
i guess..
i had this coming all along..
i guess..
its all my fault that im liddat..
mary.. sorry.. i cant don tink abt these stuffs.. haii..
not pinnin any hopes in my eoys anymore..
but im still gonna try my best..
bye my tri sci.. T.T

10/02/2008, thursday

2008-10-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

I was feeling very empty today.. felt so empty..
like i was an empty shell.. no reason to be here at all..
haii.. maybe just feel.. sadded bahs..
onli this time i really was tryin to hide it all..
haii.. i hate the feeling.. haii..
no wonder emo is so much better than hiding.. haii..

10/01/2008, wednesday

2008-10-01T17:18:00.003+08:00

不知道从几时开始，
我的世界就围绕着你。
你的一举一动，
你说的话，
你所做的决定，
都会影响到我。
我知道，
我不该让这发生。
我更加知道我很白痴，
但我还是愿意被你这么的影响。

i do know i make empty promises..
i really know..
but hearing it coming out from you like that..
makes me sad..
cause i'm really trying not do it..
you may think i'm not trying hard enough or anything..
but you don't know what i did to try and make them a promise instead of an empty promise..
you don't know..

yes people.. i'm emoing again..
EOYs is like one week away..
and i'm emoing..
i don't know how am i going to study..
my motivation to study is like.. decreasing..
haii.. i won be able to catch up..
my only wish now is to......................
haii.. and desmond..
COLD WAR IS WORSE THAN QUARRELLING OKAY..
haii.. at least getting mad shows that she/he minds and still care about you..

im sorry.. T.T

09/25/2008, Thursday

2008-09-25T19:15:00.002+08:00

Today had maths common test.
And I wore my new spects to school.
Bad idea.
It made me so giddy that :

1) I skipped last qns (a) part 4.. (everything was moving around too much..)
2) i finished 10secs before the time was up.. (too much headache)
3) made me damn giddy the whole day..
4) i prefered not wearing the spects at all.. (during geog i took it out..)

lol.. so sad can.. no full marks le.. i tot i can get.. in the end..
i forgot do a stupid part four.. walao.. T.T
haii.. and my music got B.. first time!!!!!
in like so many years..
music is like the easiest to get A la..
this year get a B.. wat the crap..
haii.. today not all bad.. :D
after school was happi happi time.. :D
haha.. lols.. :D

until.. i broke down again..
i think i tooooooo..crappish mood these days..
lack of sleep..
almost everyday like 12midnight sleep..
study until damn late.. walao.. sianed..
please let me get high high high high marks!! T.T

i don't want you to go.. T.T
not now not ever.. T.T

2008-09-24T20:40:00.002+08:00

i broke my promise at that moment..
i did something that shouldn't be done..
but if i didn't do it..
i would not be able to stop myself from....
oh whatever..

im running out of super glue..
don't hurt me anymore.. T.T

09/23/2008, sunday

2008-09-21T20:12:00.002+08:00

It has been quite a while since I last blogged.
Been too busy playing sinko and also studying..
but not as much as last time of course. :D
now watching 'fated to love you' and doing my maths.
i feel damn worried and damn nervous..
sigh..

09/17/2008, wednesday

2008-09-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

Emo-ed early in the morning,
I tried not to show it.
But I don't think it worked.

I was thinking too much once again.
Whole day kept thinking about it.
Even though for quite awhile I remembered the happy times.
But soon, the emo ones came by and took over.
I didn't have the energy to do anything.
I didn't even want to eat.
But I forced myself to eat.
1packet of chicken rice, 1 hard-boiled egg, 1 prata and my dinner.

I'm still eating away.
Bloating myself won't die right?
It's not painful right?
I'm not hurting myself anyway right?
So eating my troubles away is a good way right?
At least it must be better than biting or cutting.
I really don't know what to do already.

I really want to find some one who can..
I don't know, listen to what i want to say
and don't find it silly and just listen and keep what I say a secret.

Sigh. Got so many things I want to say..
So many questions that I want answers to..

i know i'm making your life terrible..
i'm sorry.. but i just can't bear the pain
i am i feeling right now..
i'm sorry.. but i really want to know..
why'd you had to hide from me?.. T.T

09/16/2008, tuesday

2008-09-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

im emo-ing again..
how pathetic can i go..
i really got someting wrong with me..

我又回到了原点。。
为什么我就是不能往前走。。
要一次又一次地回头看。。
想起一些不快乐的回忆。。

i really want to stop emo-ing..
but why can't i?

09/11/2008, thursday

2008-09-12T11:07:00.002+08:00

Had chinese common test today. Was chionging on wednesday and today. Wow. In the end, I studied yan yu for like 10mins only and I could remember more yan yu than ci yu. So retarded. And yan4 yu2 no han4 yu2 pin1 ying1 but okay la. I could answer most of them except the second yan yu. Sigh. My ci yu was worse than my yan yu. Wow. Sigh.

Today was a happy day. :D

Byebye.

naughty naughty boy. hmmm..

09/10/2008, wednesday

2008-09-10T20:05:00.005+08:00

Today didn't have recess was in r.e.l.a.c(is this how it's spelt?) room. Coach Daniel is nice. Inside room got sofa and colourful cushions! Very nice to hug them and got many stuff toys, got pooh and tigger and the rabbit. And got lollipop! But I didn't dare take the lollipop. :X spend the whole recess inside there talking. Sigh.

After that, nothing much happened except needed to collect P.E money by Friday. Sigh! I think I better sms everyone. Sigh. Collect money very irritating. Sigh. At least I'm not collecting alone. And quite alot people are co-operative. That's a good thing. :D

Today directly after school, I went to find Jin Yi and ask if can go home together. I don't want go home alone. She say can. Yay! So we went to canteen buy chicken drumstick then walked down and eat at the same time. I bought the spicy one and when i ate finish it, i was sniffing quite alot. After that we go mrt and talk alot of crap and now i'm suspecting something about her. Hmmm.. JinYi you dare hide it from me, I will ~~rape~~kill you!! Lols. Joking joking.

Guess nothing much happened today. Just went home super early and i manage to remember at least one chapter of chinese. Good sign, cause normally i wouldn't care about it. But yan4 yu2 i will die a horrible death la. Chionging now. Almost everyone chionging. So i must chiong with them also! Yay!

Okay chionging time!

Bye Bye! :D

all the best..
i'm looking forward to tomorrow..

09/09/2008, tuesday

2008-09-10T17:10:00.001+08:00

Tell Her- Jesse McCartney

I know how it feels
To wake up without her
Lying here all alone
Just thinking about her

I can't believe
Her hold on me
it's somethin indiscribable
I know she knows
But won't you please

If you see my girl
Just tell her i miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
Cause I know when she
Holds onto me
She's the one thing that i could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Tell her I love her
Oh yeah
Just tell her I love her

The way that she moves
You know what it does to me
When I catch her eye
I can hardly breathe

Still can't believe
Her hold on me
She's just so indiscribable
I know she knows
But won't you please

If you see my girl
Just tell her i miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
Cause I know when she
Holds onto me
She's the one thing that i could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Tell her I love her

Every time that I'm around her
I just go to pieces crushing, tumbling to the ground
I'm so glad I found her

I know how it feels

If you see my girl
Just tell her i miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
Cause I know when she
Holds onto me
She's the one thing that i could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Just tell her I love her

If you see my girl
Just tell her i miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
Cause I know when she
Holds onto me
She's the one thing that i could never live without
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
And tell her I love her
Just tell her I love her
Plz tell her i love her

i didn't want to do it..
sorry..

09/08/2008, monday

2008-09-10T16:52:00.005+08:00

Today is need to make our home econ de end product. It is our group's first time making it, we were really scared that it would fail. But it didn't! And it turn out quite good! Although it was very filling, I ate half of it and full already but I still had one more. So i kept asking around for people to eat it or maybe just one bite. In the end, only Mary and Waimeng ate it, they ate only abit and i still had to finish it. Sigh! Was very bloated.
Nothing more. I'm lazy to type long long post already!
Bye Bye!

i miss you

09/07/2008, Sunday

2008-09-09T20:56:00.005+08:00

Nothing interesting happen, only I went out on Thurday, Friday, Saturday and today! I thought today can finish up my homework. In the end had to go out also. Went with Su Hui and Zhe Kai to White Sands and buy ingredients for home econs.

Nothing much happened after that. (I think.)

Bye Bye.

Don tire yourself out.. Sigh.

09/06/2008, Saturday

2008-09-08T22:01:00.003+08:00

Even thought today is the first day of term4, I'm going to make today a saturday and post about what happened. *thinks*

I woke up late, way later than I had expected. It was around 8.35am and I had to leave house at 9am to be on time. I needed to go Yi Jing's house to do science project. I quickly dressed up and chomp down my breakfast(no way am I going to get that stupid illness again.). I did it all in like 8mins and it was 9.45am when I called Yi Jing to ask which bus should I take from Bedok Interchange.

After that, I rushed out of house and ran to white sands, took bus 66 and reach her house at 9.57am and Su Hui arrived few minutes later in bus 21(which is a direct bus from Pasir Ris.). Then, we waited for Yi Jing to fetch us to her house. Reach her house and she showed us her room. Pink like crazy. At least to me is alot of pink already and many many stuff toys everywhere. Stuff toys and other toys were almost in every corner. Never seen a room like that before. But her house, IT'S VERY BIG AND COOL.

We waited for Si Hui to come from her Cca(I think) and with the board we started to do the science project. Well, mostly I read Breaking Dawn and then I helped to summerise the part about AIDS and HIV. In the end, we eat and talked and got distracted abit and didn't finish at all. But nearly done.

Byebye!

i'll make time for you no matter what..
to me you're the most important person..

09/05/2008, Friday

2008-09-06T20:56:00.005+08:00

Okay, today is supposed to be Saturday but I put the heading as Friday('cause it's all about Friday). Today was going to have Cca bbq! *cheers+screamings+shoutings* Was a very tired day, I woke up and still felt sleepy. But I quickly took Breaking Dawn to read, to keep myself awake. Then after lunch, Mary called. Said she didn't know what to wear and pasir ris was ulu to her. So I said I would meet her then meet the seniors to help out before the rest came.

I bathe before going, to freshen up more. Meet Mary outside popular and walked down to find her microSD 4GB memory card(for her Hannah Montana and her Suite life of Zack and Cody). It was expensive but cheaper compared to the time when I bought it.

Yeah, and so it was time to meet the seniors. I thought it was the girls seniors, but it was the guys, Yirong and Yin Soon(?). I'm not sure about the second one. Then, we met Jermaine, Michelle and Jiing Wei and walked to bus interchange. We have to go Yirong's house to get stuff, 12L of coke and wire mesh(?), a bag of stuff and charcoal. Mary carried the bag of stuff, I took the wire mesh, Michelle and Jiing Wei took turns to carry the charcoal and the seniors told Jermaine to carry the cokes. Evil aren't they? Both of them are guys and ask a Sec 1 girl to carry the heaviest thing, the cokes. In the end, the 3 of them took turns, but Yirong is totally useless. He carried the least. No strength then say, talk so many crap.

We walked to the pit, I was wearing slippers and in the end got alot of blisters, feet feel very pain now. Sigh. Reached the pit just sat down then the Yirong ask us to get the others at white sands. What the heck! So tired, I just want to rest. So in the end, Mary, Jermaine and me said we collect the food at the carpark and Yirong get the rest(time for him to do something anyway). My blisters were hurting me, so I took my time walking to the carpark, Jermaine and Mary ran there to meet the Uncle first. When I finally reach there, I didn't see them and i walked up and down trying to look for them. Then I walked the whole carpark already. So I called Mary, end up, I miss them and they went back to the pit. Then they say they wait for me first, so I walked back to meet them and we reach the pit. I brought my nike shoes so I changed into them while the rest help filling up water bombs. Felt so much better in shoes, so NOT fated with slippers. Sigh. Then I rest awhile and the rest came so I go help them with the water bombs. They were heavy even thought they looked light. So weird.

Soon, the seniors got on with the games, Mao Lin split us into 4 groups. I was group 3 along with I forgot who. First game was captain's ball on the beach, the ball kept rolling down towards the sea but in the end, my group won! After that was water games, my group main objective is to bomb Marilyn. I chase her like nobody's business and she got wet, at least wetter than me. But my shoes were very muddy. Then, Yin Soon go listen to Yirong go bomb me also. -.- Yirong, you die I tell you.

After that, we changed and it was going dark. Then I sat at the bench and Mary joined me. We started taking photos of the scenery. Got a few here.

Mostly the pictures are scenery de. It looked so nice at the beach. How I wish everyday I can go beach see the sky. It really looks nice.

After taking pictures, Mary got a call and had to rush home. So I accompanied her for a short distance and she went on by herself. So brave of her to do that as it was very dark and creepy long walk. Sigh.

The food came(Yirong's family cooked for us) and Uncle came to save the day! No guy seniors know how to light the pit. They didn't want to listen to us girls. Then Uncle came to help and did it in like 15mins or so. Then the guys bbq-ed otah, satay and they girls just slack around and eat and play game.

We played truth or dare and alot of funny things happened. Some one had to take off a guy senior spects and some one had to ask the guy if can be his gf. But of 'cause they know we're playing. And they tried their best to avoid us girls, but we manage to single them out.

Nothing interesting happened after that. Only Wennie nearly dragged me into the darkness of no return!! *exaggerates* It was a scary walk down to downtown east okay! Plus, Wennie's scary stories, creepy and eerie walk!

Waited for my father and we both cycled home and I watch Ghost Whisperer until it was 11pm and went to bed.

Byebye!

you have the rights to do anything you want..
i don't have the rights make restrictions for you..
i'm sorry.. i know all along it wasn't you fault.
it was mine.. but as long as you're happy..
i'm happy too.. no matter who is it..

09/04/2008, Thursday

2008-09-04T22:02:00.004+08:00

Of course, I cannot forget that today is Yan Jun's 14th birthday.
Let's sing a song.

Happi birthday to you!!

Happi birthday to you!!

Happi birthday to Yan ZHU

Happi birthday to you!!

祝你生日快乐！

祝你生日快乐！

祝你生日快乐！

祝你生日快乐！

lols.. so this is the end of my oh-so-short post to oh-so-old-yan-zhu.. haha.. haha.. haha.. haha.. i'm laming.. what ever.. -.-

09/04/2008, Thursday

2008-09-04T20:50:00.004+08:00

Today was a tiring day.. I woke up at 8am 'cause I had a feeling some one sms-ed me, and true enough some one did. So I sms-ed and chat for a while, until that person didn't reply anymore and then I went back to sleep. Woke up at 9.15am or so as i needed to eat breakfast and lunch and get ready to go do Cca stuffs. Sigh. Dragged myself off the bed. Had a terrible night yesterday, woke up at 2am and 5am, again. Having pathetic dreams that kept waking me up. I seriously hate it. Same as yesterday, I got my nicest dream in the morning.

Ate pandan cake for breakfast and 2 hours later I ate my lunch and was pretty full when I got out of my house. I wore the shirt that I bought in China during the immersion programme and the shorts that my aunty bought for me quite many years ago, it was the only shorts i had that was presentable.

Left house and headed for White Sands and bought Breaking Dawn! I read it on the way in the bus. Bad idea to do that. Had motion sickness. Then it started raining, how great! Had enough of raining already, weather getting very cold. Now have flu.

Spend 1 hour waiting for Wennie and then another half an hour trying to decide where to go get photos for the Cca competition and the Fast Forward competition. Decided to go Changi Airport, went to terminal 3 first.. hmmm.. :D I MISS THE TIMES IN CHINA, really missed those times. Especially one of the nights there. :D At first I didn't know what to take or even bother to take any. But I didn't want to come out again to take, so I took out my camera and snap snap. The rest got nice photos. For me, it turned out quite bad. 'Cause I was aimlessly pointing my camera in all direction and snapping on everything I see. Also, I was playing around, taking unnecessary pictures and videos. Only 2 pictures I liked alot. So I don't know which to submit. Still choosing. Sigh.

Everything after that was like slacking. We went to the petrol station near Mary's house, I didn't buy anything, didn't felt like eating ice-cream. After that, walked to her house, the adobe thing didn't work at all. So all those waiting was for nothing. It was late so we ate dinner there. Quite nice dinner. :D After that, we went home at around 7.35pm, took bus 12. It was getting very dark, and I have phobia of the dark. So I just kept sms-ing and sms-ing. So glad I had some one to sms. Ran home from the bus stop, couldn't take it any longer. Reach home like, 8.30pm plus plus already.

That's my day. Byebye!

Thanks for accompanying me when I'm scared..
i love you! muacks! :D

09/03/2008, Wednesday

2008-09-03T20:59:00.003+08:00

So this is it, my 400th post for my blog. Didn't know i could post so much. Sigh. Woke up alot during the night. Had nightmares. I dreamt of ghosts and ghouls. I was being chased by a liquid thing, it was made of mud and had a face. It could go anywhere and change its shape(mainly 'cause it's liquid.)

I remember, there were many of us, but we got seperated and i was stuck with two girls. Girls I don't even know. We were in a dark hallway, walking aimlessly. We didn't know where to go. Then the two girls argued and I stopped them. Suddenly they ran away hiding in a corner like they saw a ghost or something. Then I started to have goosebums(lag reaction). I turned and I saw it. A ghost with long hair that covered her face. She was wearing a white piece of table cloth(i wonder why.) and staring at me. I shouted 'f***off' and ran like a mad woman.

Surprisingly that ghost didn't come after me. But something else did. That mud-like creature did. Up to now, I still don't know what that thing is and I don't want to know. I don't want to have that dream again.. I was really scared. I smsed some one at like 2am in the morning, hoping for a reply.

I really felt alone. But I know he won't reply.. It's too early in the morning. So i tried to go back to sleep. Afterwards, I didn't have any dream. Until i woke up again at 5am and slept back did i then had a nice dream. Dreamt of..happy days. Kept waking up though, always at the part i wished it would continue(like in drama series, exciting part then cut off.) 'cause it was too cold. Then i had to repeat the dream again from the start. Was so irritated that had to repear like 3times that i just daydream when i was awake.. even thought the feeling wasn't right but at least it made me happy.. hmmm.. =D haha..

hope this is a long enough post.

byebye!

the confession you made was unexpected..
im sorry if the reaction i made gave you the wrong impression..
but truely i was really happy..
thanks.. iloveyou!

09/02/2008, Tuesday

2008-09-02T20:04:00.003+08:00

This is my 399th post. :D I remember I promised that my 400th post would be an ultra long one. But I'm not sure about it now. My maid went to White Sands to buy Eclipse for me. Of course is use my savings to buy. (And now I'm left with nothing. -.-) Currently being ignored in a sense. Sigh. Knew this would come but didn't know it was this soon. Sigh. Never mind. I shall not... over react. -.-

Tomorrow, I must start on my homework already. My last day to finish all of them. (Sure cannot make it. One reason is I won't be able to stop reading Eclipse.) But tomorrow is my chance to sleep more! FINALLY!

Never knew it was so hard to type a post. Maybe 'cause nothing i can write here. Hmm...

No one is going to talk to me.. Sigh.. I'll read Eclipse while i wait..

byebye!

counting down to the moment you'll say those words...again.
hopefully.. i'll still be able to hear it.. T.T

09/02/2008, Tuesday

2008-09-02T15:32:00.002+08:00

I think I'm too crazy over Twilight. But it's really a nice book. *laughs* So, I changed my blogskin to TWILIGHT! This skin looks quite nice too anyway. :D I'm so excited about the movie. So so so so so so so so so so so so excited about the movie! wheeeeeeeeeeeee! lols..

don't know what else to post already.

byebye.

2008-09-02T14:46:00.002+08:00

haha.. very happi today.. :D haha.. hmmm.. haha.. i still haven't bought eclipse though.. T.T i want it so badly.. sob sob.. T.T haii.. i'm so stupid.. haii.. nevermind.. i was reading the twilight movie and all that.. haha.. then i saw the whole cast.. i memorized their faces and then i read the book again.. IT WILL BE DAMN COOL SIA.. HAHA.. twilight the movie gonna be released on christmas this year.. haii.. first country to show it in theatres is philipines..20 Nov for them.. T.T sob sob.. I WANT TO SEE IT!! SOB SOB.. i see the trailer i get so excited le!! haha.. lols.. haii.. but if dec comes mean sec3 coming.. haii.. omg.. that's the horror.. haii.. awww... i wan see twilight.. sob sob.. even though i tink that the actress acting bella swan is abit too old.. hmmm.. maybe it's just the pictures i see.. HOPE SHE LOOK GOOD INSIDE.. HAHA..

im going to beg my mom to buy eclipse and breaking dawn.. haha.. i got no mood to study if i nv finish the whole series.. haii.. sob sob.. haii.. so addicted sia.. haii.. to me.. THIS IS MORE ADDICTIVE THAN HARRY POTTER!! BUT I STILL LOVE THEM BOTH!! =D Haha.. lols..

buaiibuaii..

'surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone i loved.'
- twilight

2008-09-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

lols.. it's the start of september le.. haii.. time flies real quick.. haii.. soon eoy come liao.. haii.. sadded.. i really dowan go sec3.. but i dowan stay as sec2.. haii.. makes me feel im getting older.. and dumber.. haii.. argh.. haii.. im addicted to sinko.. i jus like to go online.. and stone thr.. wtc? is damn lame.. i go thr to stone.. haii.. lols.. i tink im gonna buy eclipse tmr.. i hope so.. i hope i don fall sick tmr as well.. jus recover.. i reli scared.. today i ate yam ice cream.. got a slight stomach ache and felt like vomitting.. but i didn't la.. haii.. PLEASE DON LET ME HAVE THAT SICKNESS TINGY AGAIN.. it's torture.. haii.. reli torture.. haii.. T.T i dono wat to say liao.. haii..
lols..

buaiibuaii..

izzit worth it to sacrifice your pureness?..

2008-08-31T20:38:00.001+08:00

today was a great day.. my mom bought new moon for me.. i read finish it ler.. now left eclipse and breaking dawn.. haha.. im tinking about buyin the host too.. hmm.. not sure about that.. today was a reli great day.. i reli reli was happi.. reli reli am.. something nice happened.. haha..

2008-08-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

yayme!! haha.. created a quiz with uncle out of boredom.. hmm.. im goin to try do it.. i won cheat!! i got bad memory.. don worry.. haha..

The Extremely Chim Number Quiz (by Ong Wai Meng and Rachael Lee :3)
You've seen many number quizzes. But they involve an odd number of people and contain somehow similar-ish questions.

So. First, name ten boys (gays count). (bold de muz do!! lols.. no matter how late it is.. still do hors)
M1. junyang
M2. zhe wei
M3. zhe kai
M4. yanjun
M5. desmond
M6. shenghui
M7. fabian
M8. alessandro
M9. hongming
M10. waimeng(muz do hors.. u created it anyways..)

Now, name ten girls. (bold muz do.. haha)
F1. JINYI
F2. SELINA
F3. LINJING
F4. MARILYN
F5. YIJING
F6. HSIAOLAN
F7. SIHUI
F8. SUHUI
F9. YANNY
F10. WENNIE

And that was to prevent questions with a lot of potential from going to waste XD.

Okay, now time for the questions. Let's start with the boring ones.

-What if M8 got first in class?
he got it a couple of times in some tests le.. so who cares.. lols..

-If F1 suddenly joined your CCA how would you react?
(If she's already in your CCA replace 'joined' with 'left')
(Replace 'CCA' with 'school' if she's not in your school)
OMG MY GF IN MY CCA.. WOO!! MORE TIME WITH HER LA.. DAMN HAPPI.. LOLS..

-What if M3 suddenly grew shorter/taller than you?
haha.. if he grow shorter THEN TOO BAD. LOLS.. if u grow taller.. u deserve to die.. lols.. too tall no good also.. later u cnt kiss... *ahem* lalalalallala..

-If F10, out of nowhere, treated you to a meal, what would you think her secret motive is XD?
i dono.. she may be bored.. haha.. i dono.. =D but WENNIE IS GENEROUS DE.. HAHA..

-M6(for guys)/F6(for girls) falls in love with an unexpected person (e.g., the most ugly/hated/unpopular person) in you class. What would you think of him/her?
OMG.. HAHA.. I TOT OF THIS BEFORE ANYWAY.. HSIAOLAN U MUZ NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH BNB.. lols.. if u do.. i will whack u until u wake up.. cnt dui4 bu4 qi2 yijing's daddy de...

Okay, now for totally sick/random questions thought up by an equally sick 'nise(lee) :3.

-What if M1 was a vampire?
oh.. haha.. i don mind giving my blood to him.. haha..
maybe i could be a vampire with him too.. that'll be so cool.. haha..
*thinking of twilight*
yupps.. will be cool.. :D and.... :D *smiles*

-Is M10 a gay?
LOLS.. NO LA.. haha.. -.-

-What if M7 raped F4?
OMG.. THAT WILL BE SO UNEXPECTED..

-Is F2 a lesbian?
i tink she already is luh.. she has linjing.. =p and dowan me.. T.T sob sob..

-If M9 reveals to you that he is a world-renowned superhero, what will you do?
........ i will not believe.... seriously..... if u say the rapist...... i may believed.....

Now for "What if they didn't exist" questions.

-If F8 announced that she was migrating, you would...
awww.. i will miss her la.. but i tink some1 else will miss her more.. T.T

-What if you never met M3(for guys)/F3(for girls)?
lols.. then.. i will nv see a nest head before.. haha.. lol.. jkjkjk..

-What if you never met F8(for guys)/M8(for girls)?
i wouldn be so irritated by his whistling.. haha..

-What if M4 contracted a disease and would die in two months? (Touch wood :3)
ALL THE BETTER.. WOOHOO.. LIDDAT NO POLLUTION LEHS..

-If M1(for guys)/F1(for girls) was of the opposite gender instead......
lols.. i wouldn hav gotten so close to her bahs.. :D

Finally, the part you've all been waiting for...the couples!!
Name what would happen if the following dated:

- M5 and F4
i don think that will happen.. and i hope not.. -.-

- M2 and F9
HAHA.. LOLLERBLADES.. HAHA.. I WILL BE SHOCKED.. BUT IF THEIR HAPPI THEN OK LOR.. HAHA.. LOLS..

- M10 and F7
..... mismatch.... reli..

- M8 and F2
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. SELINA IS ~~MINE~~LINJING'S.. LOLS.. HAHA.. *RANDOM*

-What would you do if F9(for guys)/M9(for girls) confesses to you that he/she likes you?
punch him until he is awake.. seriously.. i am a bad choice bahs.. *zibei-ing..*

-Now switch the two numbers over. (Yes, M9 for guys and F9 for girls) What would you do?
wah.. YANNY OMG.. HAHA.. LOLS.. I WILL WAKE HER TOO.. HAHA..

-Would you ever be in a relationship with F3(for guys)/M3(for girls)?
no.. firstly he's taken.. and secondly.. i think i will only love one person forever.. :D no matter wat..

-Will M4 and F5 ever date each other?
WON EVER HAPPEN DE.. seriously.. jing won be so bad taste de.. haha..

-If M7 started steading F1?
shocked.. haha..

Okay, congrats, you have reached the end of the quiz! This would be when you start to tag people to do the quiz, but for your conviniece, we have sabo-ed everything for you. ANY OF THE ALL TWENTY PEOPLE NAMED WITH A BLOG MUST DO THE QUIZ :3.

Of course, you know most of them won't XD.

haha.. i love this quiz.. haha.. lols..

2008-08-30T19:55:00.002+08:00

was wanting to do project work de.. then i got sick at bishan shopping mall.. haii.. why did i have to get sick.. why did i have to eat those potato chips.. haii.. those chips made me heaty then i got stomach ache.. plus i tink i got gastric later in the afternoon cause i didn't eat a single thing.. i tried eating.. then i vomited it out.. it was terrible.. i didn't dare eat anymore.. but it gotten worse.. i continued vomitting.. and there was nothing else to vomit at all.. haii.. then i vomitted de things.. all damn terrible.. it tasted so sour.. eeew.. but at least i did vomit out something.. haii.. my stomach ache.. was also damn pain la.. i seriously wanted to hit my stomach until it stopped.. but then.. i no strength to clench my fist.. kns.. so nvm.. everytime i got stomach ache.. i would vomit as well.. haii.. so i vomitted like more than 20times today.. then i slept.. i didn't want to feel anyth anymore.. i slept until 6pm.. then i woke up.. everything was fine.. i got my appetite back.. i ate and the pain is almost gone.. every now and then still have abit.. i hope it stops fully though..

im so sorry about the project work we couldn't do today.. i really feel damn sorry la.. even though yijing they all said it was fine.. but i still feel guilty.. sorry.. and thanks also.. u all didn't left me there to rot and die in pain.. lols.. haha thanks yijing!! sihui!! and suhui!! and hsiaolan for understanding hors..

marilyn haha.. thank for caring too.. haha.. lols..

buaiibuaii.. i gotta chiong my geog.. haha.. it muz get higher than 60.. T.T sob sob.. mom say de.. kns.. haii.. lalalalala..

i so wanted to tell you this morning..
cause i noe your concern would give me a little strength to hold on..
but i didn't want to disturb you..
jiay0us in studies bahs..
iloveyou..

2008-08-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most
vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that continued to throb and bleed despite
the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air and my head spun
like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but I couldn't hear the sound of my
pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inward, hugging my ribs to hold myself together. I
scrambled for my numbness, my denial, but it evaded me.

i love this para.. it's from new moon.. i dono why i love it.. it just made me feel stronger.. i tink new moon reli gonna make me emo.. cause.. edward and bella got separated in the starting.. hmm.. im still reading it though.. i tink i can understand how bella felt.. but she was much worse than me.. i guess.. edward.. just make her a vampire.. then happi ending le..

how i wish this book was true..
cause i wan to be a vampire too..

2008-08-29T14:42:00.001+08:00

Because you loved me - Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

im a dumb idiot..
i didn treasure you..
im a dumb idiot..
i reli am..

2008-08-29T14:13:00.003+08:00

today was TEACHER'S DAY.. lols.. i came to school early.. lols.. and collected 32$ haha.. yupps.. then i pass it to ms farah.. then she keep lor.. then we got morning assembly as usual.. then got zao cao.. i cant do shang ti.. cause my right calf ytd night got cramp.. now still pain.. haha.. so i was totally relying on my left one.. haha.. haii..

after that the upper sec students came in.. then we sit back.. then the CELEBRATIONS begin.. lols.. the teacher had to walk in together.. lols.. kindda weird.. hmm.. dono la.. then yupps.. then then the concert band was first to play.. boths songs were nice.. even though some parts sounded out.. hmm.. yupps.. then then i forgot le.. but i noe.. the sing-a-long thing.. was the worst part of all.. why did they have to choose those songs.. why did they have to sing it now.. haii.. i just felt like getting out of there.. but i didn't want to move.. haii..

i was crying.. haii.. i cried in the hall omg.. haii.. but was just a little bit onli.. i was fighting back my tears.. i cant cry in hall.. in front of people.. haii.. then yijing go tell desmond then.. shenghui came to sit beside me.. haha.. he say dr wee here again.. then kip sayin don cry la.. lol.. i also noe don cry.. but i cnt rite.. just when i stopped le.. they go play 'because you loved me'.. i was like holy shit.. omg.. then i cried more.. haii.. i was thinking alot of emo stuffs.. im still not strong enuff..

i miss him.. reli.. more than usual.. and im scared too.. im reli scared.. this feeling is so gettin me out of control.. i was fighting with myself in a way.. i could have done things today.. but i resisted.. number one.. i don't know what his reaction would be.. number two.. im scared of the consequences.. i was waiting for the perfect chance.. that i could do.. the whole day i was waiting.. but i didn't have a chance.. i cried while in the lift.. im reli not strong yet.. haii.. then i sat at those steps.. crying.. thinking.. emoing.. i decided to stop crying.. no point imagin.. i'll have to wait.. for long time.. and im willing to.. haha.. i dont know why i behaving this way.. the fear is still thr.. haii..

we were close today.. and i reli wanted to do it(now now don imagine wrong things)..
i had to stop.. so i emo thr lor.. if thats wat u people were wondering..
i was sort of afraid..

the fear that you will one day leave me..
the fear that you will not love me anymore..
the fear that you will no longer be there..
the fear that you will be out of my life..
i was fearing all that..
guess that's why i was over reacting..
those fears were scary..
even death didn't feel as scary as those..
you just mean too much to me..

2008-08-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

i bought twilight finally!! i read until 358pages le.. let about a few hundred.. haii.. goin end le.. i wan the second book.. 19$ omg.. dies.. haii..

im not reli in the best of moods these days.. but.. someting nice happen that put a smile on my face.. and kept me happi for many hours.. tinkin about it now.. i feel happi also.. haha.. (hint hint.. who else can make me smile?) always my source of happiness.. im smiling.. yay!! how i wish he would always be like that.. as wat jinyi said.. be your usual crazy crazy one.. then im happi.. :D i tink ur smile is contagious bahs.. haha.. im thinking of you rite now.. hmm.. :D

buaiibuaii.. im off to dreamland.. i wish people all the best!! study hard!!

i've finally awakened..

even though you made me sad sometimes..
even though you made me jealous sometimes..
even though ure imperfect..
i still love you.. and always will..

these days u looked sad..
u smiled like usual..
u look exactly normal..
but your eyes tell me a different thing..
there's something going on and i don't know it..
it might be that im guessing it wrongly..
after all im usually getting wrong ideas..
but i just cant help but get this feeling..

i just wanna let u noe..
that no matter wat..
i will be thr..
just sms or call to say u wan me thr..
and i will be..
i will drop all things im doing..
and 'fly' rite next to you..

i hope to see that smile..
that childish side of you again..
i want to see u all happi again..
i hope u get back soon..

iloveyou..

2008-08-27T20:10:00.003+08:00

TIME FOR HAPPI NEWS!!
1. I GOT 71%++ FOR MY OVERALL!! IT'S MY FIRST TIME GETTING 70%++.. YAY!!
2. I GOT 93% FOR SCIENCE!! WOOHOO!! YAY!!

even though it's minor stuff to people.. but it's big stuffs for me!! yay!! haha.. =D

iloveyou~ <3

2008-08-27T19:19:00.002+08:00

lols.. rough day today.. haii.. went to school with emo mood.. listening emo songs.. walking slowly.. haii.. i woke up early.. and i left home early.. then i was reading twilight.. cause i dowan use my brain think.. then i read until i reach tanah merah.. and i walked up.. i reached school at about 6.50am+ bahs.. i put my bag then immediately came out of the class.. i wanted to wait for yijing to come school at the steps thr.. yupps.. and so coincidentally.. i saw.. then i walked quickly.. haii.. mary im taking up your habit.. running away.. now is really running away.. haii.. still too awkward to see.. i so badly wanted to say hi.. but im afraid....the reaction will be not wat i expected.. then i... yupps.. so i went to wait for yijing.. i saw her taking her bag la.. as usually.. haha.. yupps.. and i told her i crack her disc.. just to see her reaction lor.. in the end i told her i crack her cover nia.. yupps.. haii..

morning devotion was still as normal.. and the first lesson was english.. we went to the geog room to have english.. was very cooling.. and she split the class up.. those who finished the compre to one side.. and those who didn't go to the other side.. i finished my compre.. so i was thr lor.. everyone was snatching places.. cause no one wants to sit beside ben.. so the table i went to had linting, shenghui,yanjun,jeffrey and menghowe.. it was better than ben's la.. the suey person was yangwei.. we were supposed to pair up to do a compo in point form la.. hmmm.. shenghui was like.. 'rachael i pair with you..' then nvm lor.. i dowan do alone also.. so i did with him.. then we talked about stuffs.. mostly.. about bgr stuffs.. and about his own one as well.. hmmm.. he's very strong.. all boys are like that izzit? hmm.. then how i wish i was as strong as a boy.. then i won be so pathetic.. haii.. im tokin crap.. i still like being a girl.. yupps.. he told me sth.. and i got all upset..

i told yijing about it.. then she started to counsell me.. lucky it was chinese period.. or else.. i will not be concentrating lor.. haii.. while she counselled me.. i was crying.. maybe cause the fact that what she said was reli true.. all these while i tried to deceive myself about the facts she said.. but wat i reli got engrave in my head was the give and take part.. 'it's all about giving and taking.. not one always give and one always take..' and i starting thinking.. then i realised.. im in the wrong as well.. guess these all started cause of wat i did.. and wat i should have done a long time ago.. even though i cried alot and it was in front of my classmates as well.. i didn't felt like embarrassed.. i had a feeling they were like 'jiay0u-ing' for me.. that made me stop crying.. i wanna thank again yijing, shenghui and desmond.. reli reli reli dono how to thank u enuff.. next time u got problems.. or need help.. i will help u.. thanks!! yijing.. maybe u should consider full time counsellor.. lols.. u sure damn successfull de.. maybe u can be like teenage de kelly.. give advices.. yupps.. u sure will help alot people de..

after all these that happen.. i reli want to change myself for the better.. haha.. and im definitely will be stronger.. much stronger than before..

buaiibuaii..

even though i wasn't a christian or even believed in God before..
i prayed to him.. sort of telling him all my troubles..
after that.. i felt relieved.. and not alone anymore..
and today he sent angels(friends) to comfort me further..
this may sound silly.. but it reli was nice feeling.. haha..

2008-08-27T17:44:00.002+08:00

thanks people for comforting me today..
thanks those who tried to cheer me up today!!
especially yijing, shenghui, desmond!!
yijing!! thank for your advice.. even though some i don reli get it..
shenghui desmond.. thanks for acting so silly to make me smile..
and also.. give me encouragement.. haha.. yupps..
MY FRIENDS!! HAHA.. lols.. =D shenghui..
ur 'story' was real sad.. haii.. lalalalala..

buaiibuaii..

2008-08-26T20:15:00.002+08:00

these few days has been my worst days.. i really really am reckless in making decisions.. and it's all my fault for having my worst days.. haii.. i really don't know what i was thinking.. haii.. i think i didn't think at all and let my emotions get control of me.. i was very mad.. very angry.. and very depressed.. and all i was thinking to make your life miserable bahs.. but.. it didn't work at all.. not a single bit bahs.. instead i made myself more miserable.. i was more depressed than ever.. i was more angry at myself.. i reli.. wanted to die.. i kip lookin at the scissors.. i stab and i will die.. yay.. haii.. i kept thinking.. die le i won have to face myself or anyone.. won have to face wat is going to happen.. haii.. then i took the scissors.. i was abt to stab myself lor.. kindda scary thinking about it again.. then.. i starting shaking damn badly.. reli reli shaking alot.. then i cried.. i dropped the scissors.. haii.. im scared to die bahs.. im so coward.. haii.. this happened ytd in the toilet.. so my mom didn't know about it.. lucky.. haii..

so i was going to see what was gonna happen today.. i saw you.. we cross paths.. but i couldn't look you in the eye.. i kept staring at you every time i could.. im reli pathetic.. haii.. and.. even though it was okay le.. but.. i tink nothing's gonna be the same again.. will it? i really don't know.. i hope it will be the same.. i really hope it would.. im very tired.. haii.. what do you tink of me? im irritating? do you hate me? arghh.. im doing it again.. i better not think.. haii..

i hope that you will forget what i did these few days.. i hope i didn't make you sad or angry or anyth.. im sorry..

buaiibuaii.. sorry for those people who read this and feel irritated.. sorry..

after these few days.. i found out.. i reali cant live without you..
iloveyou..

2008-08-24T16:31:00.003+08:00

lols.. i found this at waimeng's blog.. he tagged me.. i don't know if i got do.. but i'll do it anyway.. i'm so bored.. blehs.. haii..

1. What will you be most focused on most of the time?
smsing and playing games that are interesting.. (sudoku!!)

2. What do you want the most now?
some one to sms me..

3. Who is the person you trust the least?
_ _ _ _ _ _ lols.. dowan say..

4. How would you describe yourself?
useless piece of crap..

5. If you have a nightmare to come true, what will it be?
to be single..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes..

7. What is your goal for this year?
Improve my grades lor.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
yupps..

9. What feeling do you like the least?
emoness..(but i have it all the time..)

10. What are the requirements you wish to have from your other half?
faithful.. and a happi person too..

11. What feeling do you feel everyday?
emoness..

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes..

13. What makes you happy?
knowing that he is happi too..

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
_________.. people close to me can guess bah.. haii..

15. Who do you hope to be always be there for you?
him.. (but the chances are 0)

16. Who are your best friends?
yijing, marilyn, hsiaolan..

17. Who cares for you the most ?
i don't know.. i hope there is one who even did care..

18. What is the worst thing someone did to you?
backstab me.. and made all my frenz leave me..

19. Who do you hate the most now?
BK

20. What's your dream job?
writing comic/mangas.. yupps..

Randomly remove one question from above, and add in your own question, make it a total of 20 questions. Tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this survey. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. (too lazy.. )

I tag...
#1 ) marilyn
#2 ) junyang
#3 ) selina
#4 ) linjing
#5 ) yijing

haha.. and everyone else who wanna do.. haii.. i doubt anyone will bother.. haha..

2008-08-24T13:16:00.002+08:00

haii.. yes.. i'm still emo-ing..
even though i don't look like i am..
i laugh alot today.. i smile alot today..
i eat alot today.. i tok alot today..
i look so happi today..
but i still very emo.. haii..
i cant think straight can.. haii..
selina if i really do sha3 shi4 then..
sorry hor.. haii.. but i won't die de.. haha..
i want see how pathetic my life gonna be.. haha..
haii.. monday still have cca..
still nid do the roving dv..
i still no inspiration for the sergeant keroro fren..
no inspiration for the festival manga tingy.. haii..
how am i gonna win!! i really wan win sth la..
i feel so useless can.. haii..
studies = kns..
cca = kns oso..
i cannot do anyth de lor.. haii..
me = kns also.. haii..
im so screwed up.. haii..
watever la.. haii..
winning sth will make me feel so much happier
and so much more useful in a sense.. haii..
art i still dono if caro got pass up anot..
i dowan fail anyth this semester..
fail hist already gou4 can3.. haii..

me and my F***ed up life..

2008-08-23T15:02:00.002+08:00

haha.. i dono wat to say.. i wan laugh but i don have anyth to realli laugh abt.. haii.. whr is my positive tinking.. kns.. all gone liao.. zzz...
haii i tink the onli way is to vent my anger out here.. arghhhh..

i hate being dao-ed..
being left alone..
arghhhhhhhh
why i like this..
arghhhhhhhh..
i tink i goin crazy..
arghhhhhhhh..

still not feeling any better. but wat the heck.. i saw tis nice penknife at one shop in tampines td.. looks nice.. haha.. hmmmmm..

why do u have to do this..
why do i have to be like this..

2008-08-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

O.o.. was a weird day today.. hmmm..

first 2 period had P.E.. wanted to play badminton.. but then got like me hsiao lan and yanjun.. dono how play liddat.. so me hsiao lan team vs yanjun.. then not enuff space.. so we go outside play.. then our shuttlecock got stuck in the tree.. haha.. then yanjun wan play soccer so he went off.. then left me and hsiao lan.. had to vs her.. but she so pro.. i kip missing alot.. cause so long no play.. then later i can hit most le.. haha.. lols.. hsiaolan taught me how smack.. lols.. i did it right a few times onli.. at least now i noe how to smack.. haha.. but i didn sweat much.. cause.. IM TOO LAN LE.. i play with yijing then will sweat.. hmm.. i tink hsiaolan too pro le.. haha.. lols.. after that mr tong tell us napha(?) de results.. and and and and and and and and
I GOT MY FIRST SILVER!!! LOLS!!
haha.. im so noob lor.. so long get first silver.. haii.. i wanna get gold.. T.T but is like impossible luh.. haha.. at least I DIDN GET BRONZE THIS YEAR!!! yay!! haha.. lols..

after that mr tong let us off early.. so we went back class 10mins earlier.. then wait wait wait until tcher come lor.. haha.. it was acc then gu2 zhang3 laoshi come in.. haha.. td last lesson le.. so sad lor.. haii.. then we get back out hmmm.. stone tingy.. haha.. mine sucked luh.. haii.. at least i got my own one.. yay!! haha.. :D lols.. then after that nid meet ms cheong about the class ting.. haii.. tio meh lik nobody's business la.. haii.. i still don't get it why muz treasurer muz be in charge of everything concerning money.. haii.. i dowan say anything more liao.. later tcher check check then i get into trouble.. haii.. -.- sianed.. so i no recess today... and was hungry like hell.. until like 4.30pm then i get to eat luh.. kns..

after recess is hcl.. got chinese result.. lols.. i don tink i failed.. cause i didn't fail any.. haha.. lols.. at least got a c5 bahs? hmmm.. dono la.. haha.. BUT MY SCIENCE GOT 93% I TINK!! YAY!! HAPPI HAPPI!! but my art fail.. cause caro kip forgetting bring to sch.. i dono she got bring today after school anot.. i hope so.. i dowan fail.. sob sob.. haii.. pathetic me.. haii.. nevermind..

then was english proposal test.. i tink that i will like get 16 or maybe fail.. cause I DIDN NAME THE STUPID INSTRUMENT!! ARGHHHHHH.. crap.. i overhead janet koh saying nid specify lor.. arghhhhhhhh.. suffered the same fate as mary.. lols.. sob sob.. this is not happening.. argh.. i dowan fail english.. arghh.. haii.. nevermind.. T.T why did i choose tt? T.T haii.. nevermind..

then it was CCA TIME!! haha.. went to art room thr and edit video.. haha.. =D lol.. but most of the time i was listening to music + doing maths revision qns.. haii.. proportion!! haha i still rmb it!! yay!! lol.. *laming* haha.. then i read wennie de manga books.. damn guai la.. but damn nice.. haha.. but abit.. sick.. hmmm.. NC16!! lols.. no la.. haha.. is PG de.. if not why she can buy it.. haha.. lols.. IS NICE NICE NICE NICE NICE MANGA BOOK.. HAHA.. i wan read.. but CCA TIME WAS SHORT.. HAHA.. lols.. then ate prata and bread and nasi lemak at 4.30pm.. cause was super hungry.. haii.. then it was lik 4.30pm le.. so so we went to find mr tam but the course end liao.. then we give a female tcher ask her give mr tam.. haha.. then senior ask us to write down which comp we want join haha.. i wrote :
1. CCA COMPETITION
2. ROVING DV
3. CHARACTER DESIGN (MANGA)
4. NEW FREN FOR SERGEANT KERORO (MANGA)
I TINK THATS ALL HAHA.. LOLS.. im currently working on keroro lor.. 9th sept.. nid submit.. haii.. and no INSPIRATION!! AHHHHH sadded.. haii..

then then went home with junyang,zhewei,dexter.. was raining but walked down.. at first wanted to walk without umbrella but.. took the umbrella anyway.. but is not mine is junyang de and i spoiled it.. sob sob.. T.T SO SORRY!! T.T haii.. i dono how handle tings with care de.. haii.. lols..

oh ya forgot to mention.. I SAW SELINA IN THE MORNING!! SHE BOARDED THE MRT AT TAMPINES!! SO CUTE!! but selina i tot u sick.. u still come sch? T.T not xin ku mehs.. haii.. T.T
GET WELL SOON.. WELL = FULLY WELL!!! haha..

lastly hor..
EVERYONE JIAY0US FOR ORAL EXAMS TMR!! HAHA

buaiibuaii XD

iloveyou..

2008-08-21T19:29:00.002+08:00

nc koh didn't come today again!! omg!! she must come can!! haii.. why she didn't come.. omg!! im relaxing too much le.. haii.. nc koh!! please come back.. i hope u don't make us do english test tomorrow.. cause i have no clue how to do a proposal correctly.. haii.. sob sob.. haii..

today i came at about 7.20am bahs.. haha.. then i started to do my art lor.. and listen music with yijing.. haha.. lols.. then i draw a rectangle and 3 circles!! haha.. then then the three circles is heads of 3 people!! haha.. i don't know why i did that.. lols.. haha.. then yijing wan alot songs from me lor.. lols.. -.- haii.. but she not online yet so i later than send!! haha.. =D

first period was music.. then the guys and some girls sang twinkle twinkle little star!! lols.. haha.. then then.. xiu jian played colours of the wind on the piano.. is nice nice.. heh.. =D then shermay dono play wat song lor.. but is a nice song.. haha.. then we go com lab do the logic fun ting ting.. then i on comp for like 5-10mins then nid off le.. cause listen was over liao.. then we were late by like 10mins lor.. and mom still haven reach our class yet.. lols..

next lesson was science.. then do bio again lor.. kip seeing the same old pics of the female and male repro tingy.. lols.. had to write down the functions of certain parts.. but i wrote in point form.. onli one i write wrongly!! yay!! haha..

then it was recess.. mom told me ms cheong wanted to see me.. i was like for wat?!? then she say is about class fund tingy.. cause i treasurer so i need go.. then suhui and huizhen also nid.. haii.. in the end ms cheong was busy and didn't meet us.. so tomorrow recess need go again.. haii.. lols.. but i reali dono wat to say to her is she ask me lor.. haii.. i ate lik 6nuggets for recess.. and was super hungry can.. then i corner jinyi! lol.. haha.. she so cute!! i hug her.. she go hug yijing!! omg.. so cute!! pass the hugs!! yay!! haha.. lols..

after recess.. was hcl.. tic was busy for like 1period plus plus.. then had to do 2compre.. i manage to finish both of them.. then i played sudoku.. haha.. sudoku is fun!! haha.. lols.. nevermind.. haha.. then then i was playing with jing and hsiaolan again.. haha.. then english nc koh nv come lehs.. haii.. sob sob.. then i continue play with jing and hsiaolan.. haha..

then geog tcher come in.. then do the rivers again.. i couldn't concentrate lor.. haii.. don't know why.. haii.. maybe i keep tinking about stuffs again.. but i actually manage to do the worksheet even though i was like staring at the slides and not reading at all.. haii.. wow me.. haha.. lols.. my geog i tink.. c5.. haha.. at least i didn't fail like history.. yay!! my humanities suck like hell la.. haii.. language also.. not good.. haii..

then was recess again!! i forgot wat i did during recess.. haii.. i tink i listen songs bahs.. then then was maths.. ms ng gav like a whole stack of revision worksheet.. from start of year until end of year.. walao eh.. i tink i going to do from today onwards luh.. haha..

then after school got cca thing to do.. haha.. i pei mary go find mr tam.. then mr tam saw wrongly.. 2GB become 2MB.. lols.. then mary thumbdrive cant.. lols.. so use his D drive thingy.. haha.. lols.. then mary was like late for her council meeting.. hmmm.. then i say byebye to mary and i heard some one say.. 'i heard alot of complains...' from the group of councillors.. haha.. lols.. hmm.. muz be about the dance? i dono la.. haha.. but was quite fast lor.. mary came back damn quick.. then we hungry.. so go eat first.. then.. go back do.. then the adobe premium pro i tink.. kip hang hang thr.. then nid save everytime.. scared hang again.. after all of wennie and yanny de hard work!! the editing was done!! i tink.. haha.. lols.. hmmmm.. yay!! i was extra thr nia.. haha.. lols.. damn cool luh.. got air con in art room de.. so cool!! i didn't know can!! lols.. finish de time i tink was lik 5pm..

then i went home..

before that.. I SAW SELINA AND LIN JING!! OMG THEY WERE UBER CUTE CAN!! I WANTED TO HUG HUG SELINA DE.. SO CUTE!! THEN I JUS PAT PAT HEAD.. HAHA.. SO CUTE!! OMG!! haha.. selina when u get better.. I WILL HUG YOU!! YAY!! HAHA..

buaiibuaii XD

wrong timing again bahs.. im sorry.. T.T

2008-08-20T18:36:00.002+08:00

ahah.. today nc koh never come.. lols.. then miss kee? or key? i don't know la.. she came in then give us worksheet to do.. but i only finished passage a cause cause.. i got distracted by everybody and i couldn't understand the text.. it was about cars.. hmmm.. weird luh.. but nc koh never come.. CAN TAKE BREAK!! haha.. lols.. seriously can take break.. cause i have her lesson feel so.. tired!! and not cause not enuff sleep.. is cause USE TOO MUCH BRAIN CELLS TO UNDERSTAND ABOUT PROPOSAL.. LOLS.. haii.. but got test coming.. omg.. i dowan fail it.. T.T sob sob.. haii..

next period was chinese.. i was chionging my zuo wen la.. i still owe one mahs.. haii.. chiong chiong chiong.. no ling2 gan3 come.. so ended up writing crap.. and i think can get like.. 40/70 onli.. -.- maybe less lor.. cause i was writing crap and it was damn short.. haha.. but at least not a zero.. haii.. and i heard that my chinese test DIDN'T FAIL!! so happi can.. i didn't study.. so zao ju and the first part.. i left almost all blank except for like 3-4 words or less lor.. then liddat abt 20marks gone liao.. haha.. then i still can pass.. means my compre is like HIGH HIGH DE!! HAHA.. heard onli got one failure which is yang wei.. hmm.. haii..

after that is recess!! eat the mian4 xian4 curry again.. haha.. i like it luh.. but i don't think i can eat it again tmr lor.. got sick of it liao.. haii.. either that or im too full le.. lols.. haii.. haha.. sat with suhui sihui they all.. haha.. lols.. =D after that.. so pinch pinch birthday girl de face face!! haha.. =D which reminds me!! muz sing song!!

HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO AMELIA!!
HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
祝你生日快乐！
祝你生日快乐！
祝你生日快乐~
知你生日快乐！

yay!! haha.. amelia's birthday today.. haha.. she's so young luh.. haha.. hmmm.. still got alot presents to buy luh.. got tcher's day and other people birthdays lor.. haii.. hmmm.. hahaha..
and christmas!! lols.. heh.. i hope to spend one day of christmas with.. haha.. lols.. lalalalala!!

after recess was science.. was learning about the female repro.. haha.. lols.. mom ask us to draw out lo.. then i draw until guai4 guai4 one.. but at least nicer than the drawing of the guy one.. haha.. look more guai lo!! haha.. lols.. hmmm.. then yang wei draw his one with a face, 2hands and 2legs la.. damn cute leh.. and funny.. haha.. lols..

after that was art.. haii.. so sadded luh.. i find mrs hudd so ke lian liddat.. haii.. im glad she not our form tcher or else.. she will damn xin ku de.. haii.. ms farah can control class!! she got loud loud voice haha.. like jing de.. haha.. ooo.. haha..

then got math lors.. haii. probability tingy.. damn kns la.. i finish first page of exercise when tcher there explaining how do.. lols.. haii.. then she explaining.. i half listening half sleepin.. haii.. was super tired luh.. haii.. now also lor.. haii..

then SEL lesson.. OOOOO.. watch army daze for the 3rd time.. omg luh.. haii.. couldn't laugh anymore liao.. i can tell when funny luh.. but the sad sad parts.. almost made me cry.. haii.. lols..

after that i had to do corrective work tingy.. haii.. nid do upper sec block 2nd and 3rd floor.. is me and yijing do de.. haha.. got one class sec4 de class.. walao.. i pour the rubish into the dustbin hor.. got water come out de leh!! then dripped on my hand.. then i saw a can of green tea thr.. walao lehs.. IS GREEN TEA DRIPPING DOWN LUH.. then tt class still got bubble tea.. sweets.. and other drinks.. kns.. -.- damn disgusting lor.. haii.. got one i even saw chewing gum stuck to it sia.. walao.. zz.. so disgusting.. but overall kindda fun lor.. haha.. yay! =D

tomorrow have to stay back for roving dv.. i don't even noe if im in or not.. cause people say i not.. mary say i am.. so i just go la.. no harm rite.. if im not then i diam diam thr watch lor.. anw thurs I CHAO FREE DE CAN.. haha.. lols..

this post is super long haha.. i type until my hand tired liao.. lols.. IM GONNA PLAY SUDOKU!! IM SO LIKING SUDOKU!!

buaiibuaii XD haha.. maybe will post later..

2008-08-19T20:10:00.002+08:00

okay.. haha.. was super sleepy today.. can sleep in geog la.. but i dowan.. i wan pass.. AND I DID PASS!! I GOT 16.5/25 LA.. HAHAH.. so happi sia!! haha.. finally passed.. :D yay!! haha.. lols.. im lame.. my marks so low still happi like hell.. haha.. my standards low mahs.. so i happi!! :D haha.. nothing really happened today.. yupps.. onli very sleepy..

going chinese oral le!! OMG LA.. haii.. i dono la.. T.T sob sob.. haii.. T.T nevermind..

buaiibuaii XD sorry don have mood to blog.. :X

im so kns.. -.-

2008-08-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

haha.. yayness!! so happi today!! :D haha.. hmmm.. lols.. and sad also.. haii.. receive sad news today also.. T.T haii.. nevermind.. both i also cannot say.. so heck with it.. haha.. lols.. home econ we actually finish it in lik 1period!! woohoo!! so fast luh.. but slack the rest abit sianed sianed lor.. haii.. nevermind bahs.. finish can liao.. haha.. :D

today was okay la.. haha.. lols.. i don't know la.. haha.. had cca after school.. damn boring luh.. the real course was like half an hour? then the rest everyone was playing comp.. haha.. i saw wennie playing pet society in facebook.. so cute lehs!! :D heh.. lols.. haha.. hers is a cat.. mine is like panda ears and look like bear.. -.- lols.. damn guai la.. haha.. lols..

then the stupid yirong!! senior hor.. he go put my comp on the visualiser tingy.. then suan me like shit.. 'haha onli can hit 3times..' 'haha.. cnt even hit'.. then he control my comp lor.. wat the hell luh.. diao.. zz.. then he type on my comp screen 'is this a game?' i shouted back 'of cause i game la!!' then he was like.. got qian bian face.. lols.. haha.. then i off liao.. then go home.. haha.. :D lols.. haha.. go home around 6.30pm bahs.. haha.. lols.. then 7pm++ got thunder lightning.. sob sob.. so scary.. lols.. im being so lame.. haii.. 9pm le.. time fly so fast.. tomorrow i got math test.. haii.. nevermind.. jiay0us me!! i wan get a1.. haha.. but dono cn anot.. haii.. sob sob..

buaiibuaii XD

am i too fake? haii.. nevermind..

2008-08-17T20:42:00.002+08:00

haha.. this is sec2 in infocomm!! haha.. im so extra.. onli one in pe attire.. lols.. didn bring cca tee mahs.. forgot.. haha.. but not onli me forget.. haha.. :D lols.. i tink will be blurr.. cause i enlarge it.. hmm.. haha dono la.. :D trying to find the sec1 and sec3 de.. haha.. :D lols..

2008-08-17T20:32:00.001+08:00

haii.. i don't know what to do le la.. haii..
haha.. i think i got homework.. hmmm..
lols.. i don't care le la.. haii.. lols.. lalalalala..
this is going to be the shortest post every luh.. haha..

buaiibuaii..

there goes my imagination running.. why can't i stop it!! arghhh!!

2008-08-17T15:22:00.002+08:00

lols.. I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO NOW!! OMG.. haii.. i watch tv from 10am plus until 3pm.. and im bored liao.. lols.. haha.. some talk to me? T.T nevermind.. haii.. lalalalalala.. wasting my life away.. im gonna die real soon.. haha.. lols.. im so bored.. and sleepy.. haii..

was watching volleyball.. kindda nice to see la.. haha.. hit here hit there.. haha.. and jumpy jumpy!! haha.. lols.. omg.. im talking crap now.. blehs.. wat should i do lehs.. hmmm.. play game? maple? audition? wah.. one person play damn sianed de lehs.. T.T haii.. and lonely.. haii.. dono la.. haii.. lalalalallalalalalala.. omg.. this coming wed nid clean upper sec block i tink.. omg.. haii.. nevermind.. T.T clean with yijing!! yu jia!! hmm.. don't rmb anymore.. haha.. lols.. nevermind.. haha.. lols.. can clean with yijing!! yay!! lols.. even though i wanted other days.. haha.. but nvm!!

buaiibuaii XD

i feel so fake.. T.T

2008-08-16T21:04:00.003+08:00

lols.. i just realised i reaching my 400th post le!! yay!! haha.. i promise that 400th i will post no emo stuff, more happi stuffs and it will be the longest post i ever got!! haha.. lols.. i hope i can do that.. hmm.. lalalala.. haii.. linjing reminded me got oral on saturday.. if not i really will forget de.. haii.. lols.. oral.. don't know what to prepare lor.. last year de.. is heng get a good tcher la.. haii.. the mark she give kindda high.. haha.. i tot i would get lower de lor.. haha.. yupps.. this year i never prepare much.. omg how.. sianed.. last year got this senior share how to do the conver properly.. then i follow then get higher.. but i don't really remember le lor.. haii.. i hope come out is easier de.. haha.. then everyone score high high!! yay!! :D lols.. haha..

now watching channel5.. cause got nothing to watch la.. haha.. got olympic.. running de.. but don't know which one la.. haha.. lols.. just watch for fun.. maybe can like yesterday liddat.. watch until damn late then sleep damn late.. then wake up damn late.. and skip breakfast.. hahahahaha.. lols.. im too bo liao le.. haii.. haha..

lols.. tomorrow sunday.. got nothing to do tomorrow de.. sundays are long and boring de.. haha.. lols.. but at least got time away from my bro.. muahahahahaha.. lols.. im really too bo liao.. anyone intro games to me!! 1h trial de also can.. haha.. lols..

buaiibuaii XD maybe will blog later.. i don't know.. lols..

and im missing you again..